You, you, you and you

I have a lot of catching up to do.

People have been leaving UTP one by one. Some I get to say goodbye for the last time, and some I did not. I am not good with words lately, so

Thank you so much;

to my housemates - Sal, Irene, Syuhada, Mype, Ned, Naj, Sher, Deng, Ina, Rin (not in the picture) and Enoi - for the fantastic year of sharing the house with you guys, you guys are seriously the most awesome housemates EVERRR

to Naj and Enoi, comrades, partners in crime for the past 5 years. I had the greatest time spent with you guys, gossiping, watching movies, take tons of pictures, not forgetting skipping classes and byk lagiklah. Thank you for making my life in UTP wonderful. Will miss you loads!


to Ned, my roommate, thank you for putting up with me and my 'temperaments' (esp my sarcasm, tho I dont mean it most of the time). haha.. and also for putting up with my staying up most nights making it hard for you to sleep with the lights on, but got used to it after sometime. Haha. Thank you Ned!!

to Weda, one of the most caring person I have ever met, thank you for being a great friend and a great confidante, rindu nak gossip2 ngn ko!!

to As, Siti, Nema and Pika (not in the picture) for the few last moments spent in West Malaysia (cey) as students. Had great times with you guys!! Nnt buat lg ye trip jalan2

to Rafi and Rose, for the double dates, couple things, hehe wont forget the times we spent together be it as couples or not, kawen nnt jgn lupe jemput :) dah2, jgn sdeh ye.. aku pun rindu korg gak nnt.. hahaha

to Aida, Edy, Husna, Dayah, Ada, Dya, Nad, Nana, Anis, Farha, Syara, Ami and Daa (not in the pictures) for the memorable times for the past 5 years us being classmates, and thank you too for the assignments you guys let me copy (haha), thank you so much!!


to Bali, my loyal chatting mate from 3rd year up until now. Tahan gak ko ye ngn perangai aku. haha.. Thanks bro. And also thanks for the free meals haha

and to others, whose name I havent mentioned yet, being in the same class with you guys was really the best :)


to Mr. Mubarak, my fyp daddy and Farha and Azim, my fyp brother and sister, thank you for your guidance for me to make it until the end. I cant thank you enough.


to Abg Johan and Abg Hafiz, thanks for your help and assistance for my final year project in the lab. You guys rock!


to Petronas (mana boleh lupa nie), my sponsor, thank you for the financial support, hehe


to my parents, two of the most important people in my life, thank you for the support you have given me all my life, you guys are the best and I will always make you proud of me, cant wait to see you!


and last but not least, to my dearie, cant thank you enough for all the things u have done for me, for saving me, for putting up with me, for loving me and byk lagi. I will miss you so much. Huhu....

You may see that I am a bit reluctant and haste in saying goodbye to you guys but it's not because I dont care, it's because I hate goodbyes esp when we will not see each other for a long time. Take care and keep in touch ya.

p/s : some of the pics I took from facebook profiles hope you dont mind :)

Early Age

Alhamdulillah, achieved the first stage of self compacting concrete today.



p/s : Fikirkan boley!
p/p/s : Happy Birthday Muja :)
p/p/p/s : Get well soon Anis :)

Terkial-kial Macam Sial

Today is the shittiest day of my life because

-slept at 5am and woke up at 9am because were so nervous fearing that everything will go wrong again (and damn i was right) and i went straight to the lab although my head was literally up in the clouds

-wasted 5 hours for fyp which resulted into nothing
in fact, i wasted the whole semester for the goddamn project

-got mad at by boyfriend for no reason

-have to accept the fact that my fyp is doomed.

-there's only one thing left to do. which I despise the most. but I am desperate

and oh, my music player was randomly on travis - 'why does it always rain on me' while in the lab. ironic much?

p/s : kena buat solat hajat

ANGUISH

That, my friends, is me. And probably you, too.

p/s : Penat aku melukis guna power point. Esok ada test belom study pa2. Oklah

Big Deal?

Disclamation : This post contains a lot of whines

You know, being a final year is distressing;

Initial thought "Ooh, I will be a final year student soon, I can bully the juniors, I can be and look superior because I am the senior, people will have to respect me, I will have more free time because there will be less classes and only final year project to focus on"

Yeah right. So much of the free time. Have to spend your free times in the lab doing labour works, and if you're lucky got someone to help you (in my case, boyfriend and housemates). Ok fine, not all those final year projects require you to go to lab and do heavy stuffs, there also those topics where you can develop software, things blablabla. But frankly, I dont regret in choosing my FYP topic because I prefer working with something substantial rather than working on software, but then, both categories are difficult.

That is only the beginning, being a final year student you have to think about your plans for the future, what you are going to do as soon as you step out of the uni and if you want to continue with your education, take MSc.

People would be thinking us Petronas scholars would be guaranteed with jobs at the Petronas but no, we actually have to attend some sort of tests, interviews and stuffs. And being a final year student means you would be worrying about who will employ you (if Petronas decides not to hire you) and how you would survive in the scary world out of the uni since you have been comfortable inside the compounds of uni, everything provided to you, given to you.

And oh, not to mention your parents expectation on you. Especially for the first childrens.

So you see how distressing it is being a final year student?? *hyperventilate* I bet my classmates will say the same thing too.

Ok, so I should stop worrying about the future and first decide if I would want to continue and take MSc instead of going straight into the industry.

Pros of taking MSc;
-Higher education
-Higher pay
-Higher standards (wow)

Cons;
-Studying, dunno if I can take more of that
-Stuck in uni for at least a couple of years in addition
-You have to do extensive research and be hardworking

Talked to mom about this, she said "You dont have to worry about working life yet, what you should consider is if you still want to study"

She got a point there, but I still worry about the future, I am usually the go-with-the-flow type, but I cant help worrying about this. Thinking about talking to the sponsorship officers about the sponsorship options and also some lecturers about this. But the thing is, am I even qualified for this kind of thing? Hm.

On an irrelevant note, I dont dare look at baby's pictures anymore, in case if it would make me miss him too much.

At least, I am sure of this future, will graduate from uni in less than a year.

Ha, been a long time since I have ideas to write. Ok, byebye.

p/s : Would appreciate some advice from friends too :)

Perbezaan

Cinta zaman budak-budak

• sanggup belanja RM5 untuk beli set surat dan sampul yang berbunga-bunga dan tulis ayat cintan-cintan lepas tu letak dalam desk dia (masa tu duit poket sehari hanya RM2-RM3), siap letak perfume ibu atau bedak wangi supaya surat tu berbau wangi
  
• mula-mula malu nak jumpa, bila dah jumpa tak tahu nak borak pasal apa
• berbalas-balas surat padahal masa tu sama sekolah takpun sama kelas
• tidur ditemani gambar si dia
  

Cinta zaman remaja

• dah tahu erti borak-borak serba sedikit dengan si dia
• bila rasa tak serasi, cari orang lain yang lebih serasi dan tinggalkan si dia untuk orang lain tu :P
  
• dah ada telefon mudah alih, sudah mula berjinak-jinak dengan sistem pesanan ringkas
• belum dapat lagi untuk bertelefon sesuka hati sebab duit terhad untuk beli 'top-up'
• kalau nak telefon, telefon guna talian tetap dirumah sampai kena bayar RM1k. (ibu bapa yang kena bayar) LOL
  

Cinta zaman dewasa :P

• sudah ada duit masuk setiap bulan, maka boleh bertelefon 2-3 kali setiap minggu (itu pun kalau jauh antara satu sama lain)
• sudah tahu erti membeli hadiah yang mahal-mahal untuk si dia. jam 'Guess', Perfume
• setia dengan si dia untuk masa yang lama berbanding dengan zaman sebelumnya (dan moga berkekalan selama nya, Amin)
• sudah boleh berpacaran ke bandar kerana sudah ada lesen kereta dan untuk orang-orang yang bertuah, kereta
• sudah membuat perancangan untuk hari perkahwinan, atau berapa orang anak yang dikehendaki, tempat berbulan madu, etc.

p/s : harus menempuhi 14 hari lagi sebelum berjumpa si dia!!

Once upon a time there was a bully,

During primary school;

- I pinched this one boy's ear so hard that his ear became blazing red and I think the color lasted for a few days.

- The same boy got me mad this one time and I went straight to his class (we were in different classes), I emptied his drinking water onto his desk and got all his schoolbooks soaked with water. I didnt even look back after that.

- I got mad with another boy, (we were in the same class) I moved his desk outside the class, with books, his bag and all.

- I punched a boy and made the boy cry (this one I dont remember, told by mother).

That is all I can remember. I hope that is all. I really hope there's no one else that I bully.

So my point is, don't ever bully people unless it is really necessary. haha and to the guys that I bullied, I am very very sorry (if ever they read this), let bygones be bygones k?

p/s : I still do bullying kecil-kecilan.

two oh one oh

let us do our yearly routine shall we?

this year's res;

-to complete my prayers five times a day Not Check!! :(
-to be in the dean's list Not check also :((

-to be a less agressive driver Check!! I think so

-to stop stereotyping, or judge people easily Check~

and the long awaited cliche.. the new years res;

-sekda resolutions!! hahahaha.. ive decided to go with the flow LOL see what's in store for me in 2010

and recapping the last ten years that ive been living (got this idea from Ejant (kamek tiru post kitak ejant makseh) and Rose)
2000
Sat the UPSR examination and as everybody expected I got 5As not a big deal anyway. Was in a puppy love with a classmate. Formed a gang called Gengster Mayat. poyossssiallll.. :P

And oh, broke my front tooth a bit because I fell head first onto the tiled canteen floor and lucky me the tooth made contact with the tile first not my nose. (I jumped from one canteen table to another because apparently at that time I thought I'm a monkey)

2001
Entered Kolej D.P.A.H Abdillah, "1 Biru" was my class. The class monitor is Taufiq who at that time is cute (at least to me). First time meeting friends like Dena, Pyah, Preq, Rezal and the others. The store at the back of the class was our favourite place to hang out although it was stuffy and small.

Stayed in the hostel and met my roommates, Eppy, Siti and the others. It was my first time staying in hostel and mother had to come like twice a week to collect my laundry and iron my uniforms. Hehe. But I still felt homesick and cried in the toilet for the first few weeks LOL.

2002
"2 Biru" Sat beside Florida and we had fun because all we did was fool around in the class bullying people. Because we laughed and talked so much, we didnt even pay attention to the teachers, we were told to get out from the class and to stand outside by our Geography teacher but we sneaked junkfoods out and sat on the cement floor and happily demolished the junkfoods while the others have to bear with the boredom in class.

Fell in "love" with Rezal, my friend also my classmate. Didnt last long tho because I was so fickle that I fell in "love" yet again with a senior. Lupak dah namanya LOL

And also the "tragedy" hahaha. Crying on the staircase and all...Kimennn I still feel like swearing everytime I remembered THAT time. Sapa2 tauk diam jak.

2003
Burrrr..THE PMR. Not that bad tho, considering that I still dont take my studies seriously. Got 7As and 1B. Got B for the Agama paper. Yala, Agama paper was easy peasy yada yada yada at least to you guys but for me it was the most difficult subject to score even for B. Mayb its my punishment for bullying people too much.

And not forgetting I was the class monitor weeeweee weeee hahahaha.. And it's the first time that I'm in the same class with Nora.

Oh I changed my boyfriend already, my boyfriend at that time was K-Jeman. Thought he was handsome at that time (urgh he's actually not that handsome) but by the end of the year he cheated on me! Padan muka aku for being so fickle the previous year. I literally bawled when I knew he cheated on me but then I got over it pretty quickly.

2004
Selected as the Operations Manager for the PUM school club (PUM stands for Persatuan Usahawan Muda), so was busy doing extra curricular activities and not forgetting busy bullying the English teacher, Miss Nadiah (I will remember her until the day I die because Nora and I skipped her class more than we attend them)

And this year also I felt like having lots of extra curricular certs is very important to get into the university (besides good grades) so I joined not only the PUM club, but also the Kelab Pelancongan, the Choir Club, Taekwondo activities..

This year was when I first got to know Aziz "the boy next door" coz he's from the class next to ours. LOL had a crush on him for the rest of the year.

2005
Aziz and I declared officially this year. Was soooo happy not only because I was in the same class with my besties (excluding one) but also I had the best boyfriend ever, at least, at that time.

Entered the state's competition for PUM clubs all over the state. Our team won and was automatically selected to represent the state for the national's. When we arrived at UPM for the competition I was like "we are shit compared to the others from the other states!" but still we did our best tho. And it was fun. Spend the rest of the trip at KL. Spend most of the time with Fareez and Afreeda, and got close with Fareez even after we got back to Kuching. Until now (kinda).

SPM!! I think it was one of my most depressing times. Lost of weight and the haggard look are no strangers during the exam. I remembered that I studied Add Maths non-stop for a few hours. Started to take flu pills just to make myself sleep and to avoid the anxiety for the coming exam.

2006
Got SPM result this year; 6A1s, 2A2s, and 3B3s.. And who can guess what paper I got B3.......

Thought when I got over the SPM exam I am free but how wrong I was and I have no idea that I was binding myself when I signed the contract with Petronas. Tho I SHOULD be thankful that at least I get steady allowance and all that.

First time set foot in UTP I was like, "where the hell was the beautiful buildings that they bragged about?" (our educamp was in MRSM Kuching) :P

Grabbed every opportunity to enjoy myself, who cares about the tests, quizzes, exams, assingments? :P Did lots and lots of shopping.

Was in a long-distance relationship with Aziz and it got hard when he was in the National Service because I could only contact him on the weekends. I remembered the huge row about how I was being so selfish and not caring about him at all. It was a hard time.

And we broke up at the end of the year. What a tragic way to end the year. Huh

2007
Started the first year for Civil Engineering. The studies got harder but I still havent realized that I need to be more serious about my studies. Still got time to go to Ipoh, watch movies and shopping.

Havent got over Aziz yet and was still depressed especially during holidays or when I was not surrounded by friends. Still depending on flu pills and at times, on sleeping pills.

Got myself into trouble by associating with some seniors. At that time, I thought my roomate hated me, my bestfriend hated me.. Felt really down but the senior was like an out for my situation at that time. Therefore it was pretty hard when I had to let him go.

My hero came and made me see sense so that I dont get into trouble anymore. Yeay!~~ :P

This year was a complete mess up.

2008
Boyfriend and me officially declared in February. Finally found my happiness back. :)

Started my second year of study, study got harder and I got more serious in study but still slacking in terms of results :(

Got closer with classmates, I think because of the study trips and the group work for assignments :)

Went lots and lots of outings with classmates; celebrate Eid's at Rafi's house went bowling and karaoke after. and yes we were in our baju kurungs (for the ladies). who the hell cares? hehe

2009
Already in my third year of study. Started the Engineering Team Project. We took the easy way by doing the project that our seniors have already done. Got only B for it :(

Prepared for industrial training. And with father's help got placement at Zecon Berhad. Placed at the Matang Site office for the Matang Highway Project. before i joined Zecon I had no idea that I am going to join a highway project not construction.

First time have to be independent, do things without boyfriend :( Felt so lonely at first but got used to it after a few months.

Hehe but happy all the same :)

Sekian terima kasih. Thats all, xie xie ni, arigatou, kotohuadan!

Happy New Year!

p/s : have to perah all my brain juice to remember back.

Congratulations and Celebrations

Kid sister got straight As for her PMR (the first in the family LOL). So proud of her :') and she wanted a piano as her PMR presie. recommended her the breast enhancement ringtone but she said she'd settle with her own originals for now. so,

*dig into the soil to find some gold to buy the piano*

Anyways, congratulations Irah! <3

p/s : I got straight As for PMR too... straight As and one B.

mimpi

saya mimpi saya dpt pointer 3.9!! hahahahahahaha memang berbunga-bunga hati dan sgt gumbira.



(moga2 dimakbulkan mimpi tersebut, amin.)