Thursday, December 31, 2009

two oh one oh

let us do our yearly routine shall we?

this year's res;

-to complete my prayers five times a day Not Check!! :(
-to be in the dean's list Not check also :((
-to be a less agressive driver Check!! I think so
-to stop stereotyping, or judge people easily Check~

and the long awaited cliche.. the new years res;

-sekda resolutions!! hahahaha.. ive decided to go with the flow LOL see what's in store for me in 2010

and recapping the last ten years that ive been living (got this idea from Ejant (kamek tiru post kitak ejant makseh) and Rose)
Sat the UPSR examination and as everybody expected I got 5As not a big deal anyway. Was in a puppy love with a classmate. Formed a gang called Gengster Mayat. poyossssiallll.. :P

And oh, broke my front tooth a bit because I fell head first onto the tiled canteen floor and lucky me the tooth made contact with the tile first not my nose. (I jumped from one canteen table to another because apparently at that time I thought I'm a monkey)

Entered Kolej D.P.A.H Abdillah, "1 Biru" was my class. The class monitor is Taufiq who at that time is cute (at least to me). First time meeting friends like Dena, Pyah, Preq, Rezal and the others. The store at the back of the class was our favourite place to hang out although it was stuffy and small.

Stayed in the hostel and met my roommates, Eppy, Siti and the others. It was my first time staying in hostel and mother had to come like twice a week to collect my laundry and iron my uniforms. Hehe. But I still felt homesick and cried in the toilet for the first few weeks LOL.

"2 Biru" Sat beside Florida and we had fun because all we did was fool around in the class bullying people. Because we laughed and talked so much, we didnt even pay attention to the teachers, we were told to get out from the class and to stand outside by our Geography teacher but we sneaked junkfoods out and sat on the cement floor and happily demolished the junkfoods while the others have to bear with the boredom in class.

Fell in "love" with Rezal, my friend also my classmate. Didnt last long tho because I was so fickle that I fell in "love" yet again with a senior. Lupak dah namanya LOL

And also the "tragedy" hahaha. Crying on the staircase and all...Kimennn I still feel like swearing everytime I remembered THAT time. Sapa2 tauk diam jak.

Burrrr..THE PMR. Not that bad tho, considering that I still dont take my studies seriously. Got 7As and 1B. Got B for the Agama paper. Yala, Agama paper was easy peasy yada yada yada at least to you guys but for me it was the most difficult subject to score even for B. Mayb its my punishment for bullying people too much.

And not forgetting I was the class monitor weeeweee weeee hahahaha.. And it's the first time that I'm in the same class with Nora.

Oh I changed my boyfriend already, my boyfriend at that time was K-Jeman. Thought he was handsome at that time (urgh he's actually not that handsome) but by the end of the year he cheated on me! Padan muka aku for being so fickle the previous year. I literally bawled when I knew he cheated on me but then I got over it pretty quickly.

Selected as the Operations Manager for the PUM school club (PUM stands for Persatuan Usahawan Muda), so was busy doing extra curricular activities and not forgetting busy bullying the English teacher, Miss Nadiah (I will remember her until the day I die because Nora and I skipped her class more than we attend them)

And this year also I felt like having lots of extra curricular certs is very important to get into the university (besides good grades) so I joined not only the PUM club, but also the Kelab Pelancongan, the Choir Club, Taekwondo activities..

This year was when I first got to know Aziz "the boy next door" coz he's from the class next to ours. LOL had a crush on him for the rest of the year.

Aziz and I declared officially this year. Was soooo happy not only because I was in the same class with my besties (excluding one) but also I had the best boyfriend ever, at least, at that time.

Entered the state's competition for PUM clubs all over the state. Our team won and was automatically selected to represent the state for the national's. When we arrived at UPM for the competition I was like "we are shit compared to the others from the other states!" but still we did our best tho. And it was fun. Spend the rest of the trip at KL. Spend most of the time with Fareez and Afreeda, and got close with Fareez even after we got back to Kuching. Until now (kinda).

SPM!! I think it was one of my most depressing times. Lost of weight and the haggard look are no strangers during the exam. I remembered that I studied Add Maths non-stop for a few hours. Started to take flu pills just to make myself sleep and to avoid the anxiety for the coming exam.

Got SPM result this year; 6A1s, 2A2s, and 3B3s.. And who can guess what paper I got B3.......

Thought when I got over the SPM exam I am free but how wrong I was and I have no idea that I was binding myself when I signed the contract with Petronas. Tho I SHOULD be thankful that at least I get steady allowance and all that.

First time set foot in UTP I was like, "where the hell was the beautiful buildings that they bragged about?" (our educamp was in MRSM Kuching) :P

Grabbed every opportunity to enjoy myself, who cares about the tests, quizzes, exams, assingments? :P Did lots and lots of shopping.

Was in a long-distance relationship with Aziz and it got hard when he was in the National Service because I could only contact him on the weekends. I remembered the huge row about how I was being so selfish and not caring about him at all. It was a hard time.

And we broke up at the end of the year. What a tragic way to end the year. Huh

Started the first year for Civil Engineering. The studies got harder but I still havent realized that I need to be more serious about my studies. Still got time to go to Ipoh, watch movies and shopping.

Havent got over Aziz yet and was still depressed especially during holidays or when I was not surrounded by friends. Still depending on flu pills and at times, on sleeping pills.

Got myself into trouble by associating with some seniors. At that time, I thought my roomate hated me, my bestfriend hated me.. Felt really down but the senior was like an out for my situation at that time. Therefore it was pretty hard when I had to let him go.

My hero came and made me see sense so that I dont get into trouble anymore. Yeay!~~ :P

This year was a complete mess up.

Boyfriend and me officially declared in February. Finally found my happiness back. :)

Started my second year of study, study got harder and I got more serious in study but still slacking in terms of results :(

Got closer with classmates, I think because of the study trips and the group work for assignments :)

Went lots and lots of outings with classmates; celebrate Eid's at Rafi's house went bowling and karaoke after. and yes we were in our baju kurungs (for the ladies). who the hell cares? hehe

Already in my third year of study. Started the Engineering Team Project. We took the easy way by doing the project that our seniors have already done. Got only B for it :(

Prepared for industrial training. And with father's help got placement at Zecon Berhad. Placed at the Matang Site office for the Matang Highway Project. before i joined Zecon I had no idea that I am going to join a highway project not construction.

First time have to be independent, do things without boyfriend :( Felt so lonely at first but got used to it after a few months.

Hehe but happy all the same :)

Sekian terima kasih. Thats all, xie xie ni, arigatou, kotohuadan!

Happy New Year!

p/s : have to perah all my brain juice to remember back.

Saturday, December 26, 2009


Sayu terpisah
Hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
Berhembus angin rindu
Begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi

Sepi tanpa kata
Terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
Apa pun kata mereka
Biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Congratulations and Celebrations

Kid sister got straight As for her PMR (the first in the family LOL). So proud of her :') and she wanted a piano as her PMR presie. recommended her the breast enhancement ringtone but she said she'd settle with her own originals for now. so,

*dig into the soil to find some gold to buy the piano*

Anyways, congratulations Irah! <3

p/s : I got straight As for PMR too... straight As and one B.

Saturday, December 19, 2009


I am de-stressing. Fuh fuh *takes deep breathes*

Just to remind myself (and others as well);

  • Bored Pile Report - 98% done
  • Site Assignment - next week - 0%
  • Logbook - 5th Jan - 70%
  • Presentation slides - 5th Jan - nil. nada% (!!)
  • Final report - 24th Jan - nil. nada% (!!)
  • Part time work - 19th Jan - nil. nada% !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and not forgetting moving over to a new apartment which includes lots of cleaning, packing, unpacking, and stuffs.

on a happier note, I still got time to go meronggeng and lots of sleep on the weekends <3

p/s : got my nails coloured in purple, mayb next time green or yellow. i <3.

and i like using this <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Monday, December 14, 2009

There's no other word for this

Preoccupied without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl.

You could be my someone

You could be my scene

You know that I'll protect you

From all of the obscene

I wonder what you're doing?

Imagine where you are?

There's ocean in between us

But that's not very far.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Satellite Heart

So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of a young heart
Don't you see what's wrong, can't you get it right?
Out of mind, and out of sight

"nenek kakeh, how did you meet nenek kebayan?"

"nenek kakeh, do you love us?"

"nenek kakeh, what is your fav food?"

"nenek kakeh, what do you like to do during ur free time?"

"nenek kakeh, tell me some stories about your police days."

"nenek kakeh, lets go have a walk at the beach."

"nenek kakeh, when is your birthday?"

"nenek kakeh, i love you."

there are so many things to ask you or tell you nenek, and we dont even get the chance to know you better.

you see, since nenek kebayan and nenek kakeh lived separately, the times that we visited nenek kakeh can be counted. sometimes when we went back during the holidays we seldom visited him since he lived with his other children from the second wife. but still, he's our gramps and i regretted for not making the effort to visit him more often. i am not blaming anyone for this, but this is how the situation was. and what saddens me most is that i cant recite even the Al-Fatihah for him because he was a non-muslim.

the last time we visited nenek kakeh in the hospital he said, "i am just waiting for the darkness to come"

i never realized it really was the last time i see him.

so. never ever take the people u love for granted, bcoz if u do, u'll realize one day it is already too late for anything.

p/s : nenek kakeh is in kadazan dusun means grandfather.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009


There's a possibility
All that I had was all I'm gonna get

There's a possibility
All I'm gonna get is gonna be yours then

So tell me when you hear my heart stops
You're the only one who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know

Know that when you leave
By blood and by me you walk like a thief
By blood and by me, and I fall when you leave

So tell me when my silence is over
You are the reason why I'm closed
Tell me when you hear me falling
There's a possibility it wouldn't show

p/s : dunno what my problem is, but i'm back to pills :((

Friday, December 4, 2009

Screw Bella

fav Facebook wall photo of the day.

p/s : cdt to Wes Ramsey for the photo

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Untuk renungan,

a conversation between me and my supervisor the other day;

SV : it will be a few more years before i want to settle down and start a family.

me : why? ure old enough to start a family. i mean ure already 24 and have a job. if i were you i will be thinking of settling down already. in fact i am already thinking of marrying early (haha abes la ko kamal). why do i feel differently?

SV : u're still studying that's why. wait until u join the working world one day, u will understand. i want something more than settling down and starting a family. i want to focus on my job first, gain more experience in the civil engineering works, collect some money, buy a house, car... thennnn i will think of settling down.

me : owwww.... - she got a point)

u know, although she is just a few years older than me i have to admit that sometimes she is wiser than most people her age or even the older people. what she said had made me think. hehe. well, honestly to my opinion, if u have found the one, why wait? (other than the money factor) :PP i am sooo old-fashioned i knowww. nowadays who wants to marry early? only edward cullen and bella swan. huh. i had too much of twilight.

....but then come to think of it, there are so many things that i want to do before settling down. LOL

anyways, lets wait a few years, then we will see how i still feel about settling down early eh?

p/s : ending new moon tergantung! and nur kasih dah habis!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

it's just rocket science

i love holidays!!! ...but the part when the holiday ends just sucks. i still cant get enough of sleep, food, and reruns of the nanny.

some pics from kampong.

yes, i stalked this cow (?) sapi in english apa? haha

i stalked this cat too. i named her miumiu
and we went to Manukan Island last week.

"Taman Tunku Abdul Rahman, Pulau Manukan"

culik slipper Rose!. haha. sis's


and when we arrived home last night, my baby looked like he has gained some weight.

the before picture

the after picture, bobo showing his booty

for the first time ever in my life last night, i felt like i dont want to go back to kuching coz i like it better in kk and kota marudu! huhu!

and Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone.

p/s : wish boyf was there to share the fun.

Monday, November 16, 2009


this clip made my day.

Kotak hati

i had to let them go. i had no choice. father insisted on sending them away because he said keeping them was too much of a hassle. i dont think they burden me. not at all. not when i love them so much. the mother had been living with us for more than a year already. she's practically family. but we have to part. my father wont keep her any longer. i vowed to myself that if by next year no one wants to adopt her yet i'll take her back. yes, i'll do that. even if i have to pay hundred of bucks for her. ive been missing her so much and been dreaming about her. sob3. u guys take care of yourselves now k. i'll be visiting and bring ur favourite food..fresh fishes. no more running around chasing each other for them. no more yummy food. only cat's biscuits. hu.

on a happier note, we'll be going back to Kota Marudu this wednesday to visit our nenek kebayan. cant wait. will be taking 2 weeks off from practical training.

it is 9.51am and i already browse through the net for pizza hut's delivery service. blergh. when will i stop eating like a pig i myself dont know.

Huuuu i miss Rio.

i dedicate this song to her.

i think i'll be depressed for at least a few days before i can get over this.

dah bye.

p/s: oh yea, 2012 is the bomb. like literally the bomb. totally movie of the year.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Over the weekend

Bako National Park (chronology-ed);

in the boat. on the way to the Bako National Park jetty. was quite skalo coz having never seen the life of the sea people. :P

arrived at the jetty. i dunno what we were thinking bringing those bulky stuffs jungle trekking but we managed. haha. we dont really expect to walk that much (more than 4km) thats why u can see Wira only with shirt, shorts and slippers. lucky me and Nadia packed our shoes. just in case :P

we stopped for a while on this flat rocky surface of what i think is a large boulder before reaching the beach below. i was never a person to really stop and appreciate how beautiful the nature is but this is the one time that i feel speechless just looking down at the scenery. ok. mayb im exaggerating a bit. lol

and the beach was oh so beautiful. we had fun. pity i didnt bring spare clothes so i was not able to join the others swimming. we put our things beside a shallow stream and the water from the stream is pleasently cool and u can practically lie in it without getting drowned.

stopped for a while at the ledge next to the beach before heading back to the jetty. the trip was very refreshing and i wud certainly want to come back to this place (but must train stamina first) and the fact that i got sunburn and feel sore the next day is negligible. XD we didnt camwhore much on the way back to the jetty because we were very tired at that point that we barely talk to each other during the jungle trekking.

and oh ive came up with this list;
important things to bring when u go jungle trekking and beaching:
1. mosquito repellant (lotion or liquid or spray). this is a must bring item especially when u plan to stay overnight in the jungle
2. lots and lots of food and also mineral water
3. 2 pairs of spare clothes and underwears
4. spare socks
5. flip-flops
6. sun-block
7. towels
8. toiletries
9. tissues
10. swimming outfits

and yes, if i were left alone with no civilization around i dunno if i can survive or not. i am no robinson crusoe ok. :P


Bahasa Sarawak Dictionary
skalo - never seen something and when u actually see it u act like, eeeeee... oooohhh.. aaaaahh... over-amazed la senang crita or over reacted :P

p/s : pictures courtesy of Nasmee.

Monday, November 9, 2009

We will not grow old

spent the weekend in the jungle, appreciating the nature (and feeling sore all over after the trip)

will post the pics later <3

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Derita merindu

Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya

Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa

Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu

Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
jikalau setiap hari merindu

Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia

Aku pilih derita

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Take me away

now i remembered why i wanted to be heartless in the first place. to rip my heart out and throw it away just so that i wont have to feel anything.

what wud you do if the crutch that has been supporting you, that makes u strong and not fall apart for all this while has gone? the only thing that supports u when the waves of pain come crashing down on you from all sides.. gone? altho u know it cant take the strain any longer and u still use it coz its all u got left and before u know it... its gone? what wud you do?

i never meant to cause you trouble. i never meant for it to be this way.

im doing the usual. give me a couple of pills and i'll sleep it off

call me a coward for not wanting to face it. go on. go ahead and call me a coward

Knock knock

things that are dangerous to your savings account (from the most dangerous to the least dangerous) :

1. online shop
2. internet
3. free time
4. online banking

anyhu. since its the in thing now, i figured that i should(maybe should is a loose term :P) buy a few of those colorful shawls and to change my appearance a bit - earth colored shirt, black tudung, blue or brown jeans or on the days when i feel a bit good about myself - shirt with a bit more colors, black shawl (yeah, i know, black is the easiest color to match clothes with), blue and brown jeans

after lots and lots of onlineshop hopping, i finally found some pretty cool shawls at Beau Bargain Online Shop. i chose this shop to make my first ever online purchase (yes... im a bit late on these IT stuffs) coz its organized, mentions clearly the material of the shawl - i have to know what material the thing is coz usually i dont bother to do some complicated tudung arrangement and it has to be easy to wear and also bcoz most of the shawls are prettier and have varieties of shawl to choose from (i dont really like the complicated flowery designed shawl except that if its pretty enough to have me liking it). come visit Beau Bargain~ (promote sikit)

and so today, bcoz i have free time (i always have free time these days) i bought shawls again.

i fell in love with the polka dot shawl the first time i laid my eyes on its pic. with no hesitation i submitted the order form straightaway :P

this one is nice too. to add to my collection of shawls which is not much, to say the least. pictures courtesy of Beau Bargain

i spent a lot of time browsing thru those online shop but have only made three online purchases so far. as for clothes, i dont really prefer buying clothes online bcoz afraid that it might not fit me. i am picky like that.

let us ngesep, girls


Bahasa Sarawak Dictionary
ngesep - dress up, to dress up, dressing up

Tuesday, November 3, 2009



so whaddya think? since ive got the extra time in office, i decided to change the layout. and spent a great deal of the evening bcoz of this. to add the original widgets back to the page and all.

will try other blogger templates later on also.. if i have the time. i am a busy woman u know

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Friday, October 30, 2009


(Thank God Its Friday!)

is showing more skin makes a woman hot??

a bit of cleavage, showing off her long legs, or even, flashing a bit of her boobs, or a bit (maybe more) of the navel show makes a woman hottttt??

enlighten me please people. apa sebenarnya definition hot ya. aku sik paham lah

p/s : addicted to chipsmore! (chipsmore = calories more)

p/p/s : still havent started on my exercise regime yet. how la like this?


Kesian Katrina :'(

sdeh nyaaa.... :'((

(eventho i already know what is the ending, if Katrina will die or not, which she will be.... oops...... terima kasih kepada enoi for providing the full synopsis of nur kasih haha...)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

nur kasih

i think im addicted to this drama series (who doesnt?). hoho
nah. layan while u read the rest of the post~

introducing the main characters;

Nur Amina
a kind-hearted woman but also strong considering what she has to go through for more than 4 years, living without anyone to depend on, without her parents or her so-called husband, only her bestfriend Nabila. despite all the things that she has been through she managed to finish her study in architecture. i think she is too soft towards her husband, letting her husband get his way. if i were her i wudve given up on Adam the minute he went back to Australia. (jahat2)
the actor:Tiz Zaqyah. she looks better wearing tudung kan.

Adam Hassan
Adam, a spoiled lad in his younger years, was never an obedient son. but nevertheless faithful to his steady girlfriend in Australia, Katrina. left Nur to go back to Australia and married Katrina. came back to his senses after a tragic accident killing his only son with Katrina. resided permanently in Malaysia and tried to win Nur's heart back. lalala i was estatic at first when they got back together but never factored Katrina back into the equation :O
the actor:Remy Ishak. hm, not that handsome in my opinion, the face of a typical malay guy. whats with the flowery shirt anyway? (ok mayb i dont like this character much because he cheated on Nur :P)

Katrina Anne Carlson
Adam's steady girlfriend. was in the same college with him in Oz. lead a very 'non-malay' way of life when they were in college, and i totally love her accent btw. got depressed after the tragic accident resulting in her terrible state. got into fights with Adam and eventually left him when she found out about Nur. pity cant find any of her pictures wearing covered hijab from the latest episodes :P
the actor:Sharifah Sofea. she's bootylicious. one of the hot babes in Malaysia. even boyfriend kinda have a crush on her bcoz of her body. yala2, i know im too skinny to have a hot bod like that.

Aidil Hassan
he is also one of the victims in this story. loved Nur in the early of the story but accepted his father's decision of marrying his brother to Nur instead. although he knew that Nur must be alone when left behind by Adam, he never once confessed of his feeling for Nur. also kind-hearted like Nur. a very obedient son unlike his rebellious brother.
the actor:Fizz Fairuz. i think he's more handsome than Remy Ishak. saw him once in a comedy sitcom but he looked like he doesnt belong there. well, mayb ive got this image of him being Aidil only.

and last but not least, Siti Sarah
urgh she is the most annoying character in this story. a manipulator, always try to manipulate her way to get what she wants and she also doesnt care about her sister. she's totally the opposite of Nur. a bit childish n spoiled.
the actor:Umi Nazeera. i think the producer finds actors with nice names on purpose kan. all of them have fancy names. anyway from what i heard Umi Nazeera and Remy Ishak is in a relationship (correct me if im wrong). i think she is a great actor coz it must be hard to be Siti Sarah since she have to throw tantrums and cry and scream a lot. :P

cant wait for the next episode! i bet Katrina will be sick and she will die and Adam n Nur will live happily ever after. lalala

p/s : got my first ever part-time job! yahu

Monday, October 26, 2009

you know you are fat when

-you have to have soft drinks everyday
-your meal time is more than 4 times a day
-you always have stash of junk foods kept to snack on when you feel like it (which is often)
-you have that excess fat overflowing around the band of your pants
-you have to suck in your belly when wearing baby tee or fitted clothings so that the 'bump' wont be obvious
-you prefer to wear loose clothings
-sleeping is your favourite past time, even when you are working, you always feel sleepy, and on weekends you sleep more than 12 hours a day
-you only have to climb a few flights of steps but you are already panting

So from now on, im gonna start exercising again! Yosh!
(just not today....or tomorrow...or the day after tomorrow....)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Rest In Peace

tho u have been gone for almost a year. u are always in my heart and u will always be the best pet i have ever had (sleep with me at night, never poops in the house, always.. always use the toilet where she's supposed to, the prettiest cat ever). blogger-emoticon.blogspot.comi miss you so much memek... i hope u are happy wherever you are now... and i dont have any pictures of her...because her pictures were in the stolen laptop... just this one... huhu