Friday, July 25, 2008

tak seindah mimpi

something's wrong with my blog but i cant be bothered about it.


name 10 person to do this survey.
answer this survey honestly.

i will, *cross fingers*

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?

- eh.. i guess

2 ) Describe urself in one word

- unappropriately loud oops already 2 words

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?

someone who really loves me!!! for sure

4 ) Have you ever really liked someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?

- yeahhh... thought he wud never like me back so i didnt tell him then i gave up on him then later on i found out that he liked me too haha..

5 ) Does it feel good to love?~

- yeah (:

6 ) God is giving u just 5 more minutes to live, IF you love someone special what will you say to that person?

- dont you dare to go find anyone else!!! i love you so much u have no idea how much!! ok then goodbye

7 ) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??

- say nothing at all, why waste my energy talking?

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?

- yeah. failed for the first time tho

9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?

- hehe. normal (terasaaaa)

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?

- what goes around comes around la

THE - Part 2

1 ) Best place to cry?

- his shoulder, or on my bantal busuk

2 ) Who do you love the most?

-family and friends

3 ) Tell us ur dream las night?

-i was kidnapped. got lots of nitemares lately

4) Ever hated someone so bad?

-yes. tried not to, cant be helped tho

5 ) The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?

-hm, pa oh. dunno.

THE - last person

1) had a beer with?

2)went to the movies with?
-nora n sepul

3)talked on the cell phone with?

4) u hugged?

5) u yelled at?
-a friend

in the last week have YOU

1) Kissed sumone?


3)Danced crazy?

1)think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
-i waited for sayang to have dinner together, but after i waited for 3 hours, he said he's gonna have dinner with his friends and have a meeting after that, at that point i was very hungry and sleepy and tired and i said to him why didnt he tell me earlier then i dont have to wait for him for so long just so that we can have dinner together, then before i know it, he's already waiting for me to have dinner together, and he bought secret recipe's walnut brownies for me and came to his meeting late just so that he can be with me... sigh. felt guilty for being mad at him after that

2)You will die in 3 mins. Last call?
-semayang. a lot.

3)If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
-to have my parents free from any worries, senang hati, bahagia and all

4)Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
-yeah, kinda silly come to think of it

5)Are you old fashioned?

6) What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
-the latter

7)What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
-so many lol. (food, bantal busuk, family n friends, sayang, my studies, pills)

updated :
im tagging everyone on my link panel there. d:

Sunday, July 20, 2008

pretty much the same

In my 19 years of living, ive learnt that there are many types of people. We cant exactly categorize them coz each individual are different. But this is what i came up with (only roughly) :

1. Blissful, ignorant people who can lie to themselves and everyone that everything is perfect in every way and there's nothing to worry about. This people are kinda selfish, with their empty head they can cause trouble for other people too and still think that it doesnt matter. But not many can be like these type of people coz it took guts to ignore important things in ur life that may decide ur future.

2. People who are devoted to their work or their studies and think of nothing else. Some decided to join this category because they think it is easy to deal with the tasks they were given rather than dealing with the problems of life. These people too; tend to lie to themselves that everything is fine as long as they dont think about it. The chances that if pushing themselves to the limit do not work, they'll find some other way to numb the pain out; take medications for instance. Everything is solved with pills. Which probably will have dysfucntional kidneys or have some kind of disease by the time they're 30 because of the overdosed meds. Enough said.

3. People who think and worry too much about everything that they practically start their day with lots of worries about who, when, why, what, everything and end the day the same way. They live throughout the day worrying about how other people think of them, are they dressed perfectly, or have they done their work according to deadline, or what they should eat, how much calories they burn off by jogging (insert number) miles today, how much money left in their bank account, whether their boyfriends/girlfriends are cheating on them, whether their friends still remember about them. From big matters to small matters. Practically everything.

4. Happy positive people that everything in their life is in place except for small matters that; oh i can solve this no problem! or small matter only it doesnt matter sure there's a way to get thru this! These people are very lucky, oh yes they do.

I guess im the 2nd type and a little bit of the 3rd. Ngee.

So which one are u?

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

counting the days

lesson learnt for today (or not):

1. jpj people is much nicer than policemen and u can almost ignore the fact that they gave u a rm300 compound ticket for not having a driving licence because of their niceness.

2. i will drive again no matter what jpj people say. my parents got no objections to it d:

3. never do your packing until last minute haha

4. thats all i guess.

byebye kuching.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

ooh really

a few things to catch up;

-im not over the fact that im not as thin as before.

-i can barely fit into a size 4 jeans but bought a pair yesterday nonetheless.

-i want to be a size 4!!!

-going back to utp next week, cant wait!! excited gla!! seriously, i hope i dont hyperventilate in the flight because of excessive happiness.

-not that im happy to leave my family and friends in kch, but im getting bored already.

-i had dinner at a pizza parlour last night; alone, which felt quite pathetic and im never going to do that again.

-oh, and after dinner i went to parkson and its not even friggin 15 mins since i came that i purchased something.

-which makes me wonder, what's up with women and clothes? (and shoes... bags... perfumes... make ups... jewelleries...)

-mom and dad is out of town so it leaves us siblings alone in the house, which means partayyyyy! ok, im kidding, asking my 8 years old brother to strip off and belly dance would be enough. he's good at that trust me.

-tried to cal atul, but i cant reach her number, whats up with that?

-cant wait to see him! (:

Sunday, July 6, 2008


shitty day. shitty kuching drivers. fuck them all

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

its not over yet

i usually dont like my own pictures but this one is kinda nice. credits to the photographer, pyah :D

had fun at Damai last weekend tho i only joined my friends the second day, been so long since i hang out with any of them that i realized that none of us had actually changed (except, maybe physically coz some of the boys had grown a tad cuter). more pictures here.

nothing much going on lately. i think last week is the most eventful week of my holidays. gosh, how boring. bila aku nak shopping tok.

im thinking of taking a holiday from my life. is that even possible? what if i want to have a holiday from my life forever. or sleep forever and never wake up. fuh, crazy thoughts are surfacing again. sometimes i wonder if i really am crazy. but crazy people dont admit themselves crazy. but i talk to myself sometimes, crazy people did it a lot. but crazy people dont drive. talk about driving, slow drivers driving on the right lane always piss me off. they make me feel like ramming into the butt of their car bcoz of their slowness, heck, some even drive 20kmh only!

i think driving alone is enough for me to swear more than a hundred times. byk dosa dah.

u know, when im alone at night and need someone to talk to, i scrolled thru the phonebook several times ending up in disappointment bcoz i cant find anyone to call. its funny that people are always saying, u're lucky u are so friendly and have many friends, but they didnt know the truth.

sometimes i need a cig badly and i only feel that when im really stressed but i know once i start again i wont be able to stop.

and i need my buddies badly.

and i know i need to stop when i intended to write a happy post but came out with a post full of whines.