stuck it up your arse and go to hell

i tell you, nothing is nice about this post.

it all started this morning when i woke up late; 0745 hours while the class starts at 8, i was pissed bcoz ive to rush and ive vowed to myself not to skip morning classes and so i managed to get ready in 10 minutes (pecah rekod). the 15 minutes walk to the lecture hall become a 5 minutes walk only and u can imagine how fast i walked. yes, i walked.

then in the evening ive to replace a lab session that ive missed yesterday (bcoz i slept, expecting that my labmates will call me on my cell) and the BEST thing was that i have to join this one group which im not so fond of. i came to the lab just to find out that i have to put up with my labmates taunting about me sleeping and not attending the lab session yesterday and blaming my boyfriend for it. and what the fish i felt bad already for missing the lab yesterday and having to join the other group so why do they have to make it worse?! they told me to go away and i dont belong to the group which make it worse than ever tho they didnt friggin realise it they're just happy in their own world with their own circle of friends.

how i wish i can just yell SHUT THE FUCK UP but i cant bcoz im not that kind of a person i just fume on the inside tho i wanted to do it very much.

then i went thru the lab (luckily nothing happened that will make my blood boil anymore). after the lab, i was left all alone to throw away the remainings of the cement paste and wash the container used..... i was like what the fuck man im not ur guys' kuli!!!!!!!!

but i just screamed on the inside, while begrudgingly cleaned all the mess after the experiment. when ive finished they have all went back or went home or wherever fuck they went.

and to imagine ive been having this massive headache since the beginning of the lab, i feel a shot of pain in my head everytime i sneeze or cough. tho ive taken a couple of painkillers i dont think the ache will reside soon.

im still fuming with anger, lucky im not the kind of person who throws things when she's angry so my roommate and stuffs are safe from my wrath.

i think i'll just sleep it off.