go away you friggin............... ugly thoughts

to azmi; bcoz ure not the only one who finds it hard to let go

frankly, up to this point i still cant figure out what am i doing here still living and breathing. im like a heartless robot who is trying so hard to be as humane as she can be, but it is so difficult to even feel the surge of love for someone, anyone in her anymore. and ironically people thinks that im a fickle.

ugh, and i think im getting fat here in UTP; bcoz foods can distract me from any kind of situation that i dont want to deal. (read : i dont and wont deal with the things that i find difficult to even think about). i dont know what is happening to my exercise regime bcoz it seems to be effective for only the first few weeks. hah! mayb if there are some hot guys to look at during those evenings then i'll definitely be one of the frequent visitors of the UTP lake. uhm, of course i'll go jogging and whatsoever fitness thingy, what do u think i'll be doing?? (other than watching the wonders of their hot body in their hot exercise gear). ngiahaha.

aargh my thigh is killing me. i feel like an old woman already what with these aches all over my body.

*double sigh* im thinking of throwing away all the meds but then again, what if i need them in case of emergency? just in case i need to put my mind off of things. you know.... oh well. if it is that difficult to decide, i'll let it be.