Knock knock

things that are dangerous to your savings account (from the most dangerous to the least dangerous) :

1. online shop
2. internet
3. free time
4. online banking

anyhu. since its the in thing now, i figured that i should(maybe should is a loose term :P) buy a few of those colorful shawls and to change my appearance a bit - earth colored shirt, black tudung, blue or brown jeans or on the days when i feel a bit good about myself - shirt with a bit more colors, black shawl (yeah, i know, black is the easiest color to match clothes with), blue and brown jeans

after lots and lots of onlineshop hopping, i finally found some pretty cool shawls at Beau Bargain Online Shop. i chose this shop to make my first ever online purchase (yes... im a bit late on these IT stuffs) coz its organized, mentions clearly the material of the shawl - i have to know what material the thing is coz usually i dont bother to do some complicated tudung arrangement and it has to be easy to wear and also bcoz most of the shawls are prettier and have varieties of shawl to choose from (i dont really like the complicated flowery designed shawl except that if its pretty enough to have me liking it). come visit Beau Bargain~ (promote sikit)

and so today, bcoz i have free time (i always have free time these days) i bought shawls again.

i fell in love with the polka dot shawl the first time i laid my eyes on its pic. with no hesitation i submitted the order form straightaway :P

this one is nice too. to add to my collection of shawls which is not much, to say the least. pictures courtesy of Beau Bargain

i spent a lot of time browsing thru those online shop but have only made three online purchases so far. as for clothes, i dont really prefer buying clothes online bcoz afraid that it might not fit me. i am picky like that.

let us ngesep, girls

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Bahasa Sarawak Dictionary
ngesep - dress up, to dress up, dressing up

moderation

tadaaaa!

so whaddya think? since ive got the extra time in office, i decided to change the layout. and spent a great deal of the evening bcoz of this. to add the original widgets back to the page and all.

will try other blogger templates later on also.. if i have the time. i am a busy woman u know

aku chenta

TGIF!

(Thank God Its Friday!)

is showing more skin makes a woman hot??

a bit of cleavage, showing off her long legs, or even, flashing a bit of her boobs, or a bit (maybe more) of the navel show makes a woman hottttt??

enlighten me please people. apa sebenarnya definition hot ya. aku sik paham lah

p/s : addicted to chipsmore! (chipsmore = calories more)

p/p/s : still havent started on my exercise regime yet. how la like this?

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updated.

Kesian Katrina :'(

sdeh nyaaa.... :'((

(eventho i already know what is the ending, if Katrina will die or not, which she will be.... oops...... terima kasih kepada enoi for providing the full synopsis of nur kasih haha...)

nur kasih

i think im addicted to this drama series (who doesnt?). hoho
nah. layan while u read the rest of the post~



introducing the main characters;

Nur Amina

a kind-hearted woman but also strong considering what she has to go through for more than 4 years, living without anyone to depend on, without her parents or her so-called husband, only her bestfriend Nabila. despite all the things that she has been through she managed to finish her study in architecture. i think she is too soft towards her husband, letting her husband get his way. if i were her i wudve given up on Adam the minute he went back to Australia. (jahat2)
the actor:Tiz Zaqyah. she looks better wearing tudung kan.


Adam Hassan
Adam, a spoiled lad in his younger years, was never an obedient son. but nevertheless faithful to his steady girlfriend in Australia, Katrina. left Nur to go back to Australia and married Katrina. came back to his senses after a tragic accident killing his only son with Katrina. resided permanently in Malaysia and tried to win Nur's heart back. lalala i was estatic at first when they got back together but never factored Katrina back into the equation :O
the actor:Remy Ishak. hm, not that handsome in my opinion, the face of a typical malay guy. whats with the flowery shirt anyway? (ok mayb i dont like this character much because he cheated on Nur :P)

Katrina Anne Carlson
Adam's steady girlfriend. was in the same college with him in Oz. lead a very 'non-malay' way of life when they were in college, and i totally love her accent btw. got depressed after the tragic accident resulting in her terrible state. got into fights with Adam and eventually left him when she found out about Nur. pity cant find any of her pictures wearing covered hijab from the latest episodes :P
the actor:Sharifah Sofea. she's bootylicious. one of the hot babes in Malaysia. even boyfriend kinda have a crush on her bcoz of her body. yala2, i know im too skinny to have a hot bod like that.

Aidil Hassan
he is also one of the victims in this story. loved Nur in the early of the story but accepted his father's decision of marrying his brother to Nur instead. although he knew that Nur must be alone when left behind by Adam, he never once confessed of his feeling for Nur. also kind-hearted like Nur. a very obedient son unlike his rebellious brother.
the actor:Fizz Fairuz. i think he's more handsome than Remy Ishak. saw him once in a comedy sitcom but he looked like he doesnt belong there. well, mayb ive got this image of him being Aidil only.

and last but not least, Siti Sarah
urgh she is the most annoying character in this story. a manipulator, always try to manipulate her way to get what she wants and she also doesnt care about her sister. she's totally the opposite of Nur. a bit childish n spoiled.
the actor:Umi Nazeera. i think the producer finds actors with nice names on purpose kan. all of them have fancy names. anyway from what i heard Umi Nazeera and Remy Ishak is in a relationship (correct me if im wrong). i think she is a great actor coz it must be hard to be Siti Sarah since she have to throw tantrums and cry and scream a lot. :P

cant wait for the next episode! i bet Katrina will be sick and she will die and Adam n Nur will live happily ever after. lalala

p/s : got my first ever part-time job! yahu

you know you are fat when

-you have to have soft drinks everyday
-your meal time is more than 4 times a day
-you always have stash of junk foods kept to snack on when you feel like it (which is often)
-you have that excess fat overflowing around the band of your pants
-you have to suck in your belly when wearing baby tee or fitted clothings so that the 'bump' wont be obvious
-you prefer to wear loose clothings
-sleeping is your favourite past time, even when you are working, you always feel sleepy, and on weekends you sleep more than 12 hours a day
-you only have to climb a few flights of steps but you are already panting

So from now on, im gonna start exercising again! Yosh!
(just not today....or tomorrow...or the day after tomorrow....)

Rest In Peace

tho u have been gone for almost a year. u are always in my heart and u will always be the best pet i have ever had (sleep with me at night, never poops in the house, always.. always use the toilet where she's supposed to, the prettiest cat ever). i miss you so much memek... i hope u are happy wherever you are now... and i dont have any pictures of her...because her pictures were in the stolen laptop... just this one... huhu

mimpi

saya mimpi saya dpt pointer 3.9!! hahahahahahaha memang berbunga-bunga hati dan sgt gumbira.



(moga2 dimakbulkan mimpi tersebut, amin.)

things men should know about women

why do women cant get enough of clothes, shoes, bags, accesories...etc...?
its a natural thing for women to want to feel beautiful, hence all the things that they think can make them look better, and nicer. and its retail therapy that can make them (at least) happy (other than food and friends and boyf). dont tell me u dont like seeing women dressing up. and screw the "cinta itu buta" and "its the inside that matters not the look" crap.. admit it, looks matter too (at least in the beginning).

why do women have to be such control freaks?
fyi, the term control freak is suitable only for certain people only, not all women are control freaks but i bet its hard to find a girl who dont take most matters seriously and dont give a damn about almost everything. women want to feel secure and sure of things. so do understand if something u regard as simple, become unecessarily complicated bcoz of women

why do women say one thing, but actually means another?
ok i admit, that some women are straightforward therefore easier for you to handle right? but for the others they prefer to opt for subtlety. hoping that their other half would understand them (OTHER HALF bah... duhhh) and anyway sometimes they just dont want to hurt u guys knowing that the truth is not really what u want to hear.

why do women say themselves fat and ugly and a bitch and all those stuff, but when other people say the same thing about them, they freak out or they get all emo? and what do they expect us to say when they ask us if they are fat or not? or if they look good or not?
in answering the latter, i would guess that most women would want their other half to say that they are beautiful, pretty, this, that... because women like compliments. even if sometimes they dont show it, admit it, everyone feels at least a teeny bit flattered when people compliment them right? so guys, even when she's in her worst hair day, just tell her that to you, she's still pretty, she'll appreciate that. and, who doesnt feel offended when people say bad things about them? saying it ourselves is totally a different thing.

what do women want in a relationship?
overall, what women will want most in a relationship is commitment, honesty and communication. honestly without these i dont really think the relationship will last long (but then again, who am i to argue). but based on the examples that i have seen all around me, lack of one of the three things will not do for a good relationship. and oh, guys, if your woman have said that she doesnt mind u not doing all the romantic stuff, sometimes she will want to see the romantic side of u, she will want to do romantic stuffs once in a while, my point is, u cant always take literally what ur woman tell you. the most important thing is that us women sometimes dont speak out loud what we want so thats ur job to figure out what we want, its not that hard to figure out, mayb she already hinted or something :PPP (again, OTHER HALF bahhh)
i already give some hints kan sayang >0<

so far that is all i can think of, haha. any objections whatsoever? :P

p/s : a respond to this :)

starstrukkk

for illustration purpose only

the pros and cons of dating older men;

pros:
1. u get to hang out with his friends and u wud look cool hanging out with older people (provided that his friends ARE cool)
2. he's got more money than u (provided that he secured a job)

cons:
1. his friends will treat u like a 7 year old kid because u are too young to hang out with them (provided that his friends rasa cool)
2. u cant fit in his circle of friends because of the age gap
3. he's moving on too fast in the relationship
4. he will think that he's more matured than u and therefore will feel superior or think that he is always right and ure always wrong

okay, mayb im a bit biased here but i cant think of any more advantages of dating older men so if u want to add some more, u r welcomed to do that. this is strictly just my point of view. :P

anyhoos. this is Tambi, one of the kittens. we call her Tambi coz her fur is black-ish

we fold her ears so that she looks like an elf. nya polah muka bodoe jak >_<

p/s : i suppose in Kuching smoking is a 'cool' thing to do even for the ladies.

paper planes

please be aware that this post is only interesting for book-lovers or nerds (like me, but i'm a cool nerd obviously).

let us see what happened to one of my favourite books;

sob3. the cover has almost fallen off due to excessive usage of the owner and her siblings.

but not to worry, Mr Cell-Oh-Tape is here to save the day!.....

tadaaaa.. the book is already mended and taped up nicely, thanks to Mr Cell-Oh-Tape...UUuuu look! Mr Cell-Oh-Tape and the book become buddies already, awwww how cute.

its a harry potter book, as u guys can see there from the picture and its the first harry potter book i have, given by my ex back in 2005. and ive read it like, more than 10 times already since i first got the book.

oh yes, i love reading but it is kinda hard to find the books that i really like to read and since i prefer mostly books of the fantasy genre, u can guess what kind of books i usually think worth of buying and collecting...for example, harry potter series (one of my greatest addictions, apart from my boyf), the twilight saga, shopaholic series, and i got a few of jodi picoult's but then decided lately that her books make me feel depressed and emo so i dont buy them anymore.. and lots and lots of reader's digest since a few family members like to read reader's digest too (yes... i dont read fictions only i read magazine also....). itu sahaja... yeah i only got a few collections of book since i am too stingy to buy lots of books and borrow them from friends instead. hehe.

spent most of the morning taping up the book and luckily my supervisor didnt mind, since i dont have anything else to do.. yes this is what i do every morning if im out of work, waddle here n there, clear my desk, eat n eat n eat, sometimes if im bored enough i eat eventho i was not hungry at that time (thats why ive got lots of food at my desk)

it is THE time of the month, when girls have to endure some pain in the abdomen, or horrible backaches, and u feel like nothing's right....pity boyf for having to put up with my tantrums for i have the most terrible tantrums especially when THE time of the month comes. even my parents dont want to talk to me much when i become a mongsterrr heheheh

yeay pegi concrete batching plant! im off bye

p/s: tengok sorority row ju?

batang buruk sedap

aku masih lagi waras!

its about time i share a bit more on my internship here.

my workstation. marilah kita sama2 lihat;


very messy. org penting bah! no time to tidy up.

itu sahaja. sekian

p/s : my stash of food is hidden well behind the computer and my soft drinks is kept in the drawer. huh! makan jak keja!

changed my mind eventho i know no one's reading this.

feeling rather down most of the time.

nah.





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am on hiatus. no inspiration whatsoever for the time being. my inspiration is far away from me right now. nya rah Johor. sob3. boring.

bye2

the thing that makes a man well respected.

- knows his responsibilities to his family, work, and religion.

that is all. pretty simple but nowadays its hard to find a man from my generation whom i can respect much.

p/s : i am seeing the world at its end. muslims can be seen eating or drinking what they're not supposed to in the public. it disgusts me.

p/p/s : Al-Fatihah to our fallen muslim friends in Padang, Sumatera.

p/p/p/s : im not saying im perfect im just stating the truth

never say never

:((



another nice song. but makes me feel mellow

ive packed a change of clothes and its time to move on

for the first time in so long, this morning, i read the newspaper. and oh my there are some terrible horrible news that made me grimace just reading about it (and i remembered why i dont read papers or watch the news often)

what irked me most is about the Malaysians-stole-Indonesians-cultures issue. i mean, i dont really understand why it is said to be stolen when Malaysians and Indonesians are generally Malays. come on la, we're in the same race no matter where we come from. of courseee the culture is the same. and to think that we let this petty issue become a controversy. *emo2*

anyhoos.

holiday was fine. spent most of it being sick and sleeping. for people who know me well they wont be surprise. i can sleep even when i cook. XD
nahhh thats an exaggeration. all in all, it was great spending time with friends and some of them i only get to see only once or twice a year. wont post any pictures here tho, posted some on facebook already. and the getting sick part is to be expected since the week before Eid i was so busy it was exhausting.

i was online this morning and saw the status messages of friends at utp on gtalk saying that the internet connection is slow and i thought that how lucky i am to have a decent connection here in the office but i found out internet ctok pun slow juak today!

this is pointless.

bah. kerja gk

sangat2 xde mod and mengantuk.

i think this song is cool and the lyric is nice. here u go

Happy Celebrating Eid Ul-Fitr's

its never too late to say Selamat Hari Raya!!

and i would like to apologize for all my wrong-doings to you, you, you, you, and you.

May you guys have a blast this Eid's. :))

reminiscing.

Back then;

- haha i found this. and guess what? it still applies after all these years. but the difference now is that i love my boyf and he is the one who can always turn me on no matter how he is and what he has. :) and also want to add to the list of things that turns me off, emo people (sikit2 merajuk, sikit2 xmok tegur, sikit2 xmok kwn, that sort of behaviour disgust me to the core)

- i realize my english is better when im emo

- and i realize it took me a loooooong time to get over my ex

- and andddd i realize some people borrowed my clothes a few years back and never return it!

- i used to have a pea for a brain and i think i still have a pea for a brain just that it has upgraded a bit haha

- and i whined too much i was practically a whiner

- i often did 'pep-talks' for myself

- 2005 graduation;

i love this pic!! :DD

- me and my ex used to have this conv.
aziz : wani, u believe in destiny?
wani : yeah. why?
aziz : well, nothing really. its just that i still have the feeling that we will be together one day even if now or later on i meet someone else.
wani : maybe...

but now? hm hm everything ends well eventho both of us are not together anymore :PPP

- i used to love driving but now i hate it!

- i was so depressed that i used to take anti-depressants

- my xangan friends are nice.. i miss them

- i wanted to open a bakery! hahah :)

- and i often took these quizzes often :P

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

- i used to have a wishlist but i dont anymore not when i realize that life is a bitch :)

dah. i stopped reading my xanga up until middle of 2006.

wowzerssss three posts in a day! this has to be a record.
and whaddya know! i am still in the office sitting here doing nothing just for the sake of attendance and oh how fun it is! whoopdeedoo!

i still dont have the mood to celebrate Eid's.

p/s : i'm digging Vanilla Sky's, Umbrella. download la to listen k! too lazy to post the song here

and i miss my besties :'(

i think my english is better back then. lol

p/s : reading my abandoned xanga blog

differences between adults and children;

1. children usually have at least three ambitions; usually they want to be doctors, actors, performers, engineers. tapi skrg... only a few people stick to their ambitions when they were little. kan2. i dont even know what i want to be tho im heading to the career of engineering.

2. children can just sulk or cry whenever they dont get whatever they want or mayb when they are mad or sad. tapi skrg? xkan laaa want to cry in front of people whenever we feel disappointed or sad or mad. paling2 pun we can just scream and yell at other people which usually ending up with people hating our guts

3. children dont have to think where to find money, how to save money, worry about money, worry about work. tp skrg? i think it will not be long before my hair fall in clumps because of all the worrying

the point is it is wayyy easier to be a little kid.

thats all i can think of now. tambahlah if u want to.

p/s : bahasa rojak manglish bcoz i dont bother to fikir

for those who know me, im not really into cooking but i tried to bake cookies yesterday hahaha lets see how is the result;

first attempt. kah3

sudah cantek. all golden-ish in colour. keh3. not bad eh

anyway, itu biskut kacang. so easy to do, senang kacang potet. mother said it tastes nice. :8)

and oh here are pictures of baby;

she thought the kittens are her babies. :( the mami of the kittens pun xmarah sharing her babies with tam2. so kesian but the most important thing is she is getting better. :)

bah. work22222

to be frank, sometimes it freaks me out to think that i actually have been considering marrying and having kids at this age. and to make it worse i sometimes even have the urge to just get married and get it over with V_V

but im too young to have kids! i want to have vacations every month with boyf to different places until we get sick of it thennnnnn i'll be ready to have kids.

or mayb i should work hard on being rich thennnnn i'll be ready to have kids.

or i should enjoy my youth first, spend time with friends, buy this buy that, do things that i cant do when i have kids and be all fugly (fat + ugly) and tired thennnnn i'll be ready to have kids.

or after i make sure that my husband will still love me even when i am fugly after having his kids.

yeah, i will make sure i do all that and more before having kids :)

p/s : im just bored. nothing to do in the office and not a fan of youtube, facebook whatsoever..

repentance

selama 21 hari aku menahan segala dugaan sama ada dr tpt keje mahupun dr rumah mahupun dr time driving (dugaan plg hebat) mahupun menahan lapa ble tercium bau makanan ofismate tgh mkn.

tapi hari ni... sob22... aku kalah.... lepas 4 jam berpanas bwh terik matahari di site and dgn keadaan yg dah pening2 lalat and hampir pitam sbb dehydrated sgt2, aku tpakse gak melakukan bende yg aku semmgnye xmau kalo boleh.

huhu igtkan nk wat record perfect pose tahun ni. sdey2222222222222

p/s : i miss you

the past

look what i found in my old photobucket account;

drama group discussion (my fav slipper in the background), 2006

fooling around with roommate, 2006

zaman kurus, 2006

siblings (minus amirul), 2005


camwhoring during lecture, 2006

and lots of pictures from the few years back. *sigh* i was thinner back then. (haha!) now i look like a a fat old lady. i wish life is more carefree like it was before. guess i wish for lots of things lately eh

people have been asking me ' dont u feel guilty for aborting the kittens?'

i dont know if they know it but i sure damn well feel guilty for it, guilty enough to spend the rest of my life in misery! (and THANK YOU SO MUCH to them people for rubbing it in, its not as if i need to add to the guilty, and yes i know about being punished at hell for this, i appreciate the info!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

baby (my cat who originally is tamtam, i just call her baby coz i feel like it) is sick again today and i send her straight to the vet and let the doctor keep her there for a few days bcoz i dont trust myself to take care of her at least for the time being, sob2...

on a less relevant note, ive managed to control my temper on the road, less cursing and less stubborn; just the occasional honkings and glaring at farking rude people (strictly under the circumstances of over-the-limit rudeness)

anyway its been a long time since i meet up with some friends and ive missed them but i know its my fault always busy, always have no time to join them for dinner or whatsoever, i hope i can meet up with them soon mayb for Eid's.

and i hope for a miracle that mayb dena will be back to Kch for Eid's too. :P

bah. better get back to boring life.

maaf kerana takdpt jadi sempurna dlm segala segi.

but i will never leave you, never stop loving you because i know how it felt to lose someone you love so much and i wont ever take you for granted. i know i will never forgive myself if i ever let you go. we will get through the ups and downs together. i promise you that.

tatao nak blog best2 dlm bm. lol

now that ive aborted the babies it feels so wrong. my cat is sick and i will suffer the guilt for the rest of my life.

she was mine

my favourite for the time being;



dedicated to anyone in long-distance relationships :)

of right and wrong

decision of the day; to abort the unborn babies of our cat. i feel very torn because i know it wud be painful for the cat but at the same time we cant possibly add to the number of cats at home which is now 7 cats altogether.

silly me to fuss over cats like that. but i love them!

this evening i will bring her to the vet to have the surgery. oh how i wish i have done the vasectomy earlier so that she wont have to suffer. i feel like kicking myself right now.

what now?

i miss boyfriend so much that it got to the point where its painful just not to have him by my side.

bleargh. i half wished that we both applied for industrial training at kl instead of kuching but then maybe life will be harder living in kl. working life is boring, thats why i dont update much lately, and i dont get to go out with friends especially on weekdays bcoz i spend more than half of the day working and commuting to and from work, u see, when factored in the traffic jams and what with my house being far from town, the average time i spend on the road everyday is at least 4 hrs.

i guess i shudnt complain much tho, i know there are worse case than me out there :P

this morning i suddenly wish that harry potter is real and we all are living in the harry potter world. Voldermort u say? heheh. harry potter finished him off in the last book so i guess the harry potter world is pretty safe right now. heheh gila oh. adaka harry potter bena2. mayb im getting bored with my life so much right now that i thought of wishing such nonsense.

i hate to admit it but i miss utp and i miss my classmates. i really cant wait for this training to be over so that i can go back to utp and (go to class?) he. its not as if i was eager in attending classes :P anyway my point is student life is soooooo much better than working life.

okeh! im out of ideas already. better get to work asap. toodles

maximum cuteness

so cute kan? :)))) kecik2 dah kenja mok begerek haha.. anyway happy fasting in the month of Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!

tagged

i owe farha this tag a long time ago XD

Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini.

• lawak
• Raja Lawak
• i am almost sure that she will produce offsprings yg lawak2 juge (lets just say this is a future fact)
• the kindest person ive ever met. btol xtipu!
• sporting! cayalah farha

Nyatakan 5 fakta diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya.

• love to sleep
• not interested in any sports, my knowledge in sports is like 1% only
• have terrible temper especially on the road
• pemalu........ wakakakaka
• 
  

Nyatakan 5 hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya.

• reading blogs
• reading
• reading
• texting people
• readinggggg i m a nerd am i

Anda perlu memilih 7 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka.

1. diyana ruzanna - its not a description but i miss her.
2. jason anderson raj - handsome (chia aku klk ah)
3. nur ashikin - i miss her too
4. nadia asyikin - my roommate back at utp who seems shy but actually funny
5. nurharith afnizan - nyehnyehnyehhh
6. helmi - rugby!
7. and anyone else who wants to do this tag

bananas

tragedy of the day.. my car was impaired, just bcoz that sial big car was too close to mine. if i were given the chance to yell at him, i would gladly say "ey, just bcoz u have a bigger car doesnt mean that u can just shove me out of the way !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" if i dont want to give him way, its my right la its not that the road is his and he used the shortcut and dont bother to queue while other people penat2 queue which i personally think is so selfish thats why la i refused to give him way, why would i give him way anyway when he doesnt even bother to give signal yah emo dah aku tok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*take deep breathes*

anyway do u know that Kuala Lumpur got 3rd place for the most rude cities among the 52 cities surveyed? and i think its not only Kuala Lumpur that deserves the 3rd place its the whole Malaysia and i am speaking this not only for other people but for myself too. i am not saying this blindly;

1st, i dunno how it leads to this, but the so-called pakcik who is supposed to be matured la kononnya, can walk up to my car (we're waiting for the traffic light to turn green) and yell at me, yes, yell at me in front of everyone on the road like a gangster he is dah la taik lalat besar.

2nd, this one is when i was watching madagascar 2 in the cinema and someone called me on my cell, i answered and i didnt even realized that i was talking loudly, after done talking i heard the Indian sitting next to me calling me names, terrible names, if i werent having an anxiety attack just bcoz of the rage that i felt at that time i wudve sprayed her with my drinks and tell her that she can tell me nicely about that instead of calling me names.

3rd, this morning la! i think that bastard purposely scratched my car and damage the bumper bcoz i wont give him way but i rather have the car scratched than give him way! so there!

it is a shame, the Malaysia that we are so proud of, actually have rude citizens (of all time).

and to think that i am saying this when we are approaching the independence day. Bah! screw the independence day. aku tgh emo tok.

ok, i m done venting my anger here. hehe byebye

death is but crossing the world, as friends do the seas, they live in one another still, for they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent, in this divine glass they see face to face, and their converse is free as well as pure, this is the comfort of friends, that though they may be said to die, yet their friendship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal.

William Penn, More Fruits of Solitude

so what we gonna have, desert or disaster?

(finally! feel like updating)

work is okay i guess, but as usual the routine gets boring and it gets hard for me to wake up and go to work day by day. (unless there is some cute guy(s) at the office then maybe i will be motivated to go for work, not much but mayb a little)

there are a few things that i noticed at the office (apart from the not much of a difference compared to high school fact); being in sarawak of course there will not only be malays but other races too working here in the office but what makes me so uncomfortable is the fact that the non-malays dislike (hate is too harsh) us the malays. they dislike us so much that they dont even try to pretend that they are fine being within 5m radius with us.

and also, malaslah ku nk pdh ctok. haha. this blog is too public.

anyway, i was with my brother at watson's pharmacy the other day and we noticed;


yeah, an ordinary hair gel, but zooming closer;

well what do we have here, in case u cant see the words clear enough (i just use a camera phone) it says there, written in blue : Wet & Hard.

there is no need for me to elaborate further eh ;) all i can say is obsceneity(i dont know if this word exist) can be found anywhere (even on a hair gel).

i have a runny nose and a headache and a part of me actually want to get sick and get an mc for next monday (yes, i am that desperate to have a holiday) but another part of me dont want to get sick bcoz getting sick sucks big time. hehe oh well.

better get my work done. yes, i work on saturdays too. pity me. boohoo.

anyhoos before i go;



her voice is so sweet no? she's singing Keri Hilson's - Knock You Down. Dedicating this song to my boyf. :)

weekend fun

spending time with sayang is so far the best, simple to say it is undescribable :) (and sayang bought me a pressie!)

happy gila, up until the time when he has to fly back to Johor this morning :(

:)

tho ive said this thousands of times already....

sayang is coming this friday!! hahahaha sukkkkkkk

dimana kan ku cari ganti....

i miss my laptop... and to make things worse, it is limited edition!!!! cneyyy gk ku nak carik laptop kdk ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhh tension

:P

if u dont want me anymore just say so

i dont.

things i do in the morning before reporting in on my first day of work;

- fried chicken, to tapao for lunch just to have the cat stole and eat it in the end

- fill the water tumbler just to find out that ive forgotten to bring it to work

- arrived 20 mins early and since the office is still not open, went to find nearby toilet to release some butterfiles coz i had so many butterfiles in my stomach coz nebes bah

but i find out that there's no need to be nervous at all, my supervisor and colleagues are great :)

and oh for the first week, i just have to read some reports and study plans blablabla, i dont know what i should really do. yet.

ya jak. bui2

it is gonna be forever

Happy 21st Birthday, Love

4th June 2009

used to be called "murphy's law"

LAWS OF LIFE

Law of Mechanical Repair
After your hands become coated with grease, your nose will begin to itch or you'll have to pee.

Law of the Workshop
Any tool, when dropped, will roll or slide to the least accessible location.

Law of Probability
The probability of being watched is directly proportional to the stupidity of your act.

Law of the Telephone
If you dial a wrong number, you never get a busy signal.

Law of the Alibi
If you tell the boss you were late for work because you had a flat tire,
the very next morning you will have a flat tire.

Variation Law
If you change lines (or traffic lanes),
the one you were in will start to move faster than the one you are in now
(works every time).

Law of the Bath
When the body is fully immersed in water, the telephone rings.

Law of Close Encounters
The probability of meeting someone you know increases dramatically
when you are with someone you don't want to be seen with.

Law of the Result
When you try to prove to someone that a machine won't work, it will.

Law of Biomechanics
The severity of the itch is inversely proportional to your ability to reach and scratch it.

Law of the Theater
At any event, the people whose seats are furthest from the aisle will arrive last.

Law of Coffee
As soon as you sit down to a cup of hot coffee,
your boss will ask you to do something which will last until the coffee is cold.

Murphy's Law of Lockers
If there are only two people in a locker room, they will have adjacent lockers.

Law of Rugs/Carpets
The chances of an open-faced jelly sandwich landing face down on a floor covering are directly correlated to the newness and cost of the carpet/rug.

Law of Location
No matter where you go, there you are.

Law of Logical Argument
Anything is possible if you don't know what you are talking about.

Brown's Law
If the shoe fits, it's ugly.

Oliver's Law
A closed mouth gathers no feet.

Wilson 's Law
As soon as you find a product that you really like, they will stop making it. (This one is true every time!)

Doctors' Law
If you don't feel well, make an appointment to see a doctor, and by the time you get there you'll feel better. Don't make an appointment and you'll remain sick.

(haha... no comment lol)

and it is so not fair that ur sister looks good in ur clothes.

it cant get any worse than this

have you ever stop and think that ure already older than the teen popstars and u can no longer say "nya sama umur ngn kita eh" and instead of calling the waiter in a restaurant 'kakak', they call you 'kakak'...

pendek kata nya kita semua dah tua lah!! malas nak pk gk.

will be apart from boyf for 8 months max and i dont know how i will survive thru this after 2 years of living depending on him. gne? tell me gne?

i dont know how to deal with this jealousy when im away from him..

i told you, im paranoid ok.

and... :( xtauk eh gne nk mdh.

whats wrong with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

anyway am at labuan now. visiting brother at kml.

i dont know how much longer i can stand it. he's living with his relatives and there's this hot cousin and i am so worried gla worried ok coz his cousin is hot and plus the cousin dont have any other sibling making it only the four of them in the house the cousin's parents and him and the cousin only, i know she's his own cousin and she's like a sister but she's a girl and she has boobs and a vagina and she's hot and she's hot and she's hot and the most terrible part is i cant stop those terrible images in my head.

and did i mention that she's hot? i mean boiling hot ok. he said i dont have anything to worry about but im a worry fart worry pig worry whore so i cant help it

to think that i have to live with this for 8 months...

k lah bye

you make me feel better

as usual, im the retard one. i miss this guy :(

hello,

im bored. :)

In Loving Memory,

you will always be in our heart.

(Sedih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gilak2..... i miss you memek :(((((((((( )

yes

less than 48 hours left of one of the most torturing weeks in my life. cant wait

:(

im so happy these days, i keep eating and eating and now my stomach has ballooned :( :(

but i cant stop eating. takutnya

Shall I Compare Thee to A Summer's Day?

i like this poem;

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate.

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date.

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimmed;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade,

Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,

Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,

When in eternal lines to Time thou grow'st.

So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,

So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

you know why :)

halfway home

tho i like to browse thru old pictures, i hate the feeling which comes after that; i will miss those people in the pictures a whole lot more than i was before.

i like this picture anyway;


candidkah? mcm candid. haha pa polah dena yaaaa

we're in the exam weeks now. and oh yeah, i have been deprived of internet for a few weeks, thats y i havent been updating my blog or my facebook :)

anyway internet is back, (which is hard to believe at first, too good to be true bah).

will be back to kuching next week and start my industrial training sometime in the middle of June. will be in the working arena soon. boohoo

oklah better go back to my revisions :P

kaki nota : happy belated bday to sepul and senah!

smile.

yes. i will take the finger's advice. thank u

(dah bebaik dgn boyf)

i am a psycho.

dalam kepala aku

selama satu jam sepuluh minit statik, duduk depan komputer, yg bgerak2 jari je, oh baca blog org rupanya.

muka kosong, rasa kosong, minda kosong, oh tgh simpan perasaan rupanya.

bila terkenang, dikenang balik, oh begini begitu rupa-rupanya.

pandai. aku makin pandai hal-hal simpan perasaan ni. bagus. mana award aku? patut ada anugerah menyimpan perasaan.

ye, aku  tak nafi aku pun ade ego. kau ingat lelaki je ade ego? kenapa kene perempuan je yg mengalah? kene jadi org pertama sebut im sorry? aku xpaham. tolong pahamkan aku sikit.

salah aku? salah kau?

im sorry tu tak cukup?

aku bukan sampah. lagi jauh kalau nak dibanding dengan hidupan yang sel nya satu je. itu pun kau nak buat aku mcm sampah.

kenapa aku yang kena minta maaf kalau semua ni salah kau? still, aku buang semua ego tu dlm tong sampah, and ckp SORRY. itu pun kau tak terima. 

ko hamek la ego aku tu skali.

dahla, aku penat la weh

(sori tepengaruh dengan blog org lain, guna bahasa melayu)

ITS NOT FAIR

to judge me just because ive been "close" friends with some guys on and off before the steady relationship with boyf.

the future

im not a psychic nor am i a clairvoyant.

but this is how i imagine my life wud be like before meeting him;

5 years later : climbing my career steps to achieve the highest step possible (and to be rich, along the way), boyf? who needs boyf when u are busy with ur career? having affairs now and then wont hurt

10 years later : almost reached the ultimate goal of my life (be rich) and a spinster and oh, forgot to mention, the signs of fatigue are on its way

20 years later : a spinster, but an accomplished spinster wo.. dont play2 okay. and along with the package of some kidney disease because too many medications taken already

30 years later : already dying, if not dead. still a spinster, and already make a will to give wealth to family and friends.

very miserable huh.

take me under

who should i seek comfort to?

where are you when i need you?

i dont blame you. i never blame you. blamed myself, for needing u too much. always. all of the time.

im glad i bought breaking dawn. eventho ive read it thousands of times. it makes me happy. its not a waste of money. at least, its better and healthier than the pills. 

no, u go away. i'll keep a distance from now on.

dahla, mok g baca my happy book lok. xmenyakitkan xcomplicated.