it's just rocket science

i love holidays!!! ...but the part when the holiday ends just sucks. i still cant get enough of sleep, food, and reruns of the nanny.

some pics from kampong.


yes, i stalked this cow (?) sapi in english apa? haha


i stalked this cat too. i named her miumiu
and we went to Manukan Island last week.

"Taman Tunku Abdul Rahman, Pulau Manukan"


culik slipper Rose!. haha. sis's

'sunbathing'



and when we arrived home last night, my baby looked like he has gained some weight.

the before picture

the after picture, bobo showing his booty

for the first time ever in my life last night, i felt like i dont want to go back to kuching coz i like it better in kk and kota marudu! huhu!

and Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone.

p/s : wish boyf was there to share the fun.

people have been asking me ' dont u feel guilty for aborting the kittens?'

i dont know if they know it but i sure damn well feel guilty for it, guilty enough to spend the rest of my life in misery! (and THANK YOU SO MUCH to them people for rubbing it in, its not as if i need to add to the guilty, and yes i know about being punished at hell for this, i appreciate the info!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

baby (my cat who originally is tamtam, i just call her baby coz i feel like it) is sick again today and i send her straight to the vet and let the doctor keep her there for a few days bcoz i dont trust myself to take care of her at least for the time being, sob2...

on a less relevant note, ive managed to control my temper on the road, less cursing and less stubborn; just the occasional honkings and glaring at farking rude people (strictly under the circumstances of over-the-limit rudeness)

anyway its been a long time since i meet up with some friends and ive missed them but i know its my fault always busy, always have no time to join them for dinner or whatsoever, i hope i can meet up with them soon mayb for Eid's.

and i hope for a miracle that mayb dena will be back to Kch for Eid's too. :P

bah. better get back to boring life.

what now?

i miss boyfriend so much that it got to the point where its painful just not to have him by my side.

bleargh. i half wished that we both applied for industrial training at kl instead of kuching but then maybe life will be harder living in kl. working life is boring, thats why i dont update much lately, and i dont get to go out with friends especially on weekdays bcoz i spend more than half of the day working and commuting to and from work, u see, when factored in the traffic jams and what with my house being far from town, the average time i spend on the road everyday is at least 4 hrs.

i guess i shudnt complain much tho, i know there are worse case than me out there :P

this morning i suddenly wish that harry potter is real and we all are living in the harry potter world. Voldermort u say? heheh. harry potter finished him off in the last book so i guess the harry potter world is pretty safe right now. heheh gila oh. adaka harry potter bena2. mayb im getting bored with my life so much right now that i thought of wishing such nonsense.

i hate to admit it but i miss utp and i miss my classmates. i really cant wait for this training to be over so that i can go back to utp and (go to class?) he. its not as if i was eager in attending classes :P anyway my point is student life is soooooo much better than working life.

okeh! im out of ideas already. better get to work asap. toodles

so be it

in loving memory


they were super duper cute but were lost a few months ago. this post is so outdated.

anyway, i dont know whats wrong with me lately, feeling like everything is not enough, him loving me is not enough, being with family is not enough, just being around friends is not enough, then what is? i cant tell bf how im feeling, not without making him hurt. huhu

to a friend; i didnt chicken out! :D

dahbye