Without You

In this 4 months of working I've been;

-working my ass off day and night just to get stomach ulcer (after that, learnt my lesson, reserve nighttime only for myself not work)

-having problems with my subordinates which led to their dismissals

What I can comment on working in the managerial level : DIFFICULT

I am better at handling and organizing stuff rather than organizing people. There are many kinds of people with many kinds of issues. But it is not professional for me to publicly blog further about the details of the story. So that's that.

p/s : Firing people is never pleasant but if the worker made him/herself a liability not an asset then we have to let them go, sekda jodoh orang kata.

MC

You know you are already old when;

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel extremely tired and old

p/s : pointless. Hari ini saya cuti sakit yaw. But still have to do work at home.

Jesselton

p/s : foreveralone-blog.blogspot.com

Twenty5

Gila lamak xpost in here. My hands have been itching for weeks to write something, tho, but I havent got the time. So, thanks Anis for tagging me! :

"Once you have been tagged,you are suppose to write a note, with 25 random thing, fact, habits or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated."

1) I can't ride a bicycle. Trust me. Jgn gelak k!!!!

2) I am a sucker for good food. I spend so much money on good food. More than I spend on my clothes, accessories, bags and stuffs,

3) If I am really upset, my temperature will rise and my body will feel hot. So if you happen to touch me, and it feels like I'm running a fever when I don't look sick, it means I am upset.

4) If I am really upset, and on the verge of crying, I will feel more emotional if someone is very kind to me, and I will cry instantly. So, kalo aku tgh upset, biarkan je aku, nnt kalo pujuk aku makin upset and nangis.

5) I like the smell of the people that I adore, like my boyfriend, or my cat (ok, maybe my cat is not a person, but she's my baby)

6) I don't cry easily in front of people, even in front of my close friends. If I cry in front of you, it means that I am hurt, real baddd

7) I have been doubting my capability as a real engineer.

8) I have been upset a lot lately and it's because of my work.

9) When I get really nervous, the gastric will come and I will get really really sick (vomit)

10) I always try my best to be as punctual as I can. Because I believe that one of the attributes that can make you successful is punctual.

11) If do things in a rush, I will get dizzy. Like literally.

12 ) I am not a tidy person, nor am I selekeh. I am in between.

13) I never know how to dress as pretty as my friends.

14) I have this problem with my body, a big tummy, since God-knows-when.

15) And I also wish that I have a different physical appearance, more matured, not a child like appearance. This body is not really useful especially when you need to gain people's trust and respect when u are an engineer. Argh!! Not gemok tho.

16) I depend a lot on my dad, which I have to change and start living on my own.

17) My siblings are bigger than me, except for my 11 years old brother who is already almost the same height as me.

18) My mother is smaller than me, making her the smallest in the family.

19) I have lots of guy friends, but I only have one close guy friend, and one bestest guy friend.

20) I don't really open up to people even my close friends. I am scared of letting people down, and people letting me down.

21) I have this favourite bolster, that I have since I am 13 years old. I call it 'bantal busuk'.

22) I am not lady like. And I am not a tomboy. I am in between.

23) I get sleepy and comfy when someone play with my hair. But not everyone can touch my hairrr

24) I like fantasy books. Harry Potter, Twilight, etc. But not Lord of The Ring tho. Seriously boring. Chick lits are second.

25) I once used the land line to call my then boyfriend and friends. My parents have to pay app. Rm1k. Huehue.

____________________________________________________________________

It's been 5 weeks since I updated. I miss my classmates and my life in UTP already. Having read their blogs, I realized there's so much that I have been missing in these 5 weeks.

I am doing good, tho I constantly say that I have no money and no job, I actually have been helping my father with his IBS Trainings. And get a few hundred bucks from every training that I handled. Since this IBS Trainings can also be included in the construction category, I have been meeting all kinds of people from the construction world. The participants of the trainings are mostly contractors, or contractors wannabe or Civil engineering final year students, and most of them are older than me.

When I was a civil engineering student, I never fully understood how difficult it is being a female engineer. Having to face the prejudice and all. Esp when my physical appearance is like this. When I went for training in a construction company, my supervisor gave me this to answer "What are the obstacles of being a female engineer?"

I have no idea what to answer at that time. I only answered based on my logic.

But now, I am glad to give him a few pages of answer for this question.

I got a job in KK, Sabah, which will start this weekend. I am kinda nervous (not the sick and vomit level), that I am going there by my own, not having my father by my side and guide me like he did these past few weeks. I will basically do the same thing like I did here, plus managing the company. Planning to invite boyfriend to come to KK for a visit later on too.

I guess I will face the same thing too in KK, and I have to find away to make people see me as their trainer, or as their manager, not a fresh grad kid who earns nothing to be in that position.

I know this will be over after months of experience.

Chayo wani!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, before I forget;

Latihan Kemahiran Installer IBS
Light Weight Blockwork System
16-20 Januari 2011

Hehe.

p/s : This evening, I randomly asked the mobile shop man what age do I look like, and do I look like a kid to him. He said maybe. huh.

Note to self : Don't get to obsessed with this.

two oh one oh

let us do our yearly routine shall we?

this year's res;

-to complete my prayers five times a day Not Check!! :(
-to be in the dean's list Not check also :((

-to be a less agressive driver Check!! I think so

-to stop stereotyping, or judge people easily Check~

and the long awaited cliche.. the new years res;

-sekda resolutions!! hahahaha.. ive decided to go with the flow LOL see what's in store for me in 2010

and recapping the last ten years that ive been living (got this idea from Ejant (kamek tiru post kitak ejant makseh) and Rose)
2000
Sat the UPSR examination and as everybody expected I got 5As not a big deal anyway. Was in a puppy love with a classmate. Formed a gang called Gengster Mayat. poyossssiallll.. :P

And oh, broke my front tooth a bit because I fell head first onto the tiled canteen floor and lucky me the tooth made contact with the tile first not my nose. (I jumped from one canteen table to another because apparently at that time I thought I'm a monkey)

2001
Entered Kolej D.P.A.H Abdillah, "1 Biru" was my class. The class monitor is Taufiq who at that time is cute (at least to me). First time meeting friends like Dena, Pyah, Preq, Rezal and the others. The store at the back of the class was our favourite place to hang out although it was stuffy and small.

Stayed in the hostel and met my roommates, Eppy, Siti and the others. It was my first time staying in hostel and mother had to come like twice a week to collect my laundry and iron my uniforms. Hehe. But I still felt homesick and cried in the toilet for the first few weeks LOL.

2002
"2 Biru" Sat beside Florida and we had fun because all we did was fool around in the class bullying people. Because we laughed and talked so much, we didnt even pay attention to the teachers, we were told to get out from the class and to stand outside by our Geography teacher but we sneaked junkfoods out and sat on the cement floor and happily demolished the junkfoods while the others have to bear with the boredom in class.

Fell in "love" with Rezal, my friend also my classmate. Didnt last long tho because I was so fickle that I fell in "love" yet again with a senior. Lupak dah namanya LOL

And also the "tragedy" hahaha. Crying on the staircase and all...Kimennn I still feel like swearing everytime I remembered THAT time. Sapa2 tauk diam jak.

2003
Burrrr..THE PMR. Not that bad tho, considering that I still dont take my studies seriously. Got 7As and 1B. Got B for the Agama paper. Yala, Agama paper was easy peasy yada yada yada at least to you guys but for me it was the most difficult subject to score even for B. Mayb its my punishment for bullying people too much.

And not forgetting I was the class monitor weeeweee weeee hahahaha.. And it's the first time that I'm in the same class with Nora.

Oh I changed my boyfriend already, my boyfriend at that time was K-Jeman. Thought he was handsome at that time (urgh he's actually not that handsome) but by the end of the year he cheated on me! Padan muka aku for being so fickle the previous year. I literally bawled when I knew he cheated on me but then I got over it pretty quickly.

2004
Selected as the Operations Manager for the PUM school club (PUM stands for Persatuan Usahawan Muda), so was busy doing extra curricular activities and not forgetting busy bullying the English teacher, Miss Nadiah (I will remember her until the day I die because Nora and I skipped her class more than we attend them)

And this year also I felt like having lots of extra curricular certs is very important to get into the university (besides good grades) so I joined not only the PUM club, but also the Kelab Pelancongan, the Choir Club, Taekwondo activities..

This year was when I first got to know Aziz "the boy next door" coz he's from the class next to ours. LOL had a crush on him for the rest of the year.

2005
Aziz and I declared officially this year. Was soooo happy not only because I was in the same class with my besties (excluding one) but also I had the best boyfriend ever, at least, at that time.

Entered the state's competition for PUM clubs all over the state. Our team won and was automatically selected to represent the state for the national's. When we arrived at UPM for the competition I was like "we are shit compared to the others from the other states!" but still we did our best tho. And it was fun. Spend the rest of the trip at KL. Spend most of the time with Fareez and Afreeda, and got close with Fareez even after we got back to Kuching. Until now (kinda).

SPM!! I think it was one of my most depressing times. Lost of weight and the haggard look are no strangers during the exam. I remembered that I studied Add Maths non-stop for a few hours. Started to take flu pills just to make myself sleep and to avoid the anxiety for the coming exam.

2006
Got SPM result this year; 6A1s, 2A2s, and 3B3s.. And who can guess what paper I got B3.......

Thought when I got over the SPM exam I am free but how wrong I was and I have no idea that I was binding myself when I signed the contract with Petronas. Tho I SHOULD be thankful that at least I get steady allowance and all that.

First time set foot in UTP I was like, "where the hell was the beautiful buildings that they bragged about?" (our educamp was in MRSM Kuching) :P

Grabbed every opportunity to enjoy myself, who cares about the tests, quizzes, exams, assingments? :P Did lots and lots of shopping.

Was in a long-distance relationship with Aziz and it got hard when he was in the National Service because I could only contact him on the weekends. I remembered the huge row about how I was being so selfish and not caring about him at all. It was a hard time.

And we broke up at the end of the year. What a tragic way to end the year. Huh

2007
Started the first year for Civil Engineering. The studies got harder but I still havent realized that I need to be more serious about my studies. Still got time to go to Ipoh, watch movies and shopping.

Havent got over Aziz yet and was still depressed especially during holidays or when I was not surrounded by friends. Still depending on flu pills and at times, on sleeping pills.

Got myself into trouble by associating with some seniors. At that time, I thought my roomate hated me, my bestfriend hated me.. Felt really down but the senior was like an out for my situation at that time. Therefore it was pretty hard when I had to let him go.

My hero came and made me see sense so that I dont get into trouble anymore. Yeay!~~ :P

This year was a complete mess up.

2008
Boyfriend and me officially declared in February. Finally found my happiness back. :)

Started my second year of study, study got harder and I got more serious in study but still slacking in terms of results :(

Got closer with classmates, I think because of the study trips and the group work for assignments :)

Went lots and lots of outings with classmates; celebrate Eid's at Rafi's house went bowling and karaoke after. and yes we were in our baju kurungs (for the ladies). who the hell cares? hehe

2009
Already in my third year of study. Started the Engineering Team Project. We took the easy way by doing the project that our seniors have already done. Got only B for it :(

Prepared for industrial training. And with father's help got placement at Zecon Berhad. Placed at the Matang Site office for the Matang Highway Project. before i joined Zecon I had no idea that I am going to join a highway project not construction.

First time have to be independent, do things without boyfriend :( Felt so lonely at first but got used to it after a few months.

Hehe but happy all the same :)

Sekian terima kasih. Thats all, xie xie ni, arigatou, kotohuadan!

Happy New Year!

p/s : have to perah all my brain juice to remember back.

Deadlines.

I am de-stressing. Fuh fuh *takes deep breathes*

Just to remind myself (and others as well);

• Bored Pile Report - 98% done
  
• Site Assignment - next week - 0%
  
• Logbook - 5th Jan - 70%
  
• Presentation slides - 5th Jan - nil. nada% (!!)
• Final report - 24th Jan - nil. nada% (!!)
• Part time work - 19th Jan - nil. nada% !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and not forgetting moving over to a new apartment which includes lots of cleaning, packing, unpacking, and stuffs.

on a happier note, I still got time to go meronggeng and lots of sleep on the weekends <3

p/s : got my nails coloured in purple, mayb next time green or yellow. i <3.

and i like using this <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Untuk renungan,

a conversation between me and my supervisor the other day;

SV : it will be a few more years before i want to settle down and start a family.

me : why? ure old enough to start a family. i mean ure already 24 and have a job. if i were you i will be thinking of settling down already. in fact i am already thinking of marrying early (haha abes la ko kamal). why do i feel differently?

SV : u're still studying that's why. wait until u join the working world one day, u will understand. i want something more than settling down and starting a family. i want to focus on my job first, gain more experience in the civil engineering works, collect some money, buy a house, car... thennnn i will think of settling down.

me : owwww.... (speechless - she got a point)

u know, although she is just a few years older than me i have to admit that sometimes she is wiser than most people her age or even the older people. what she said had made me think. hehe. well, honestly to my opinion, if u have found the one, why wait? (other than the money factor) :PP i am sooo old-fashioned i knowww. nowadays who wants to marry early? only edward cullen and bella swan. huh. i had too much of twilight.

....but then come to think of it, there are so many things that i want to do before settling down. LOL

anyways, lets wait a few years, then we will see how i still feel about settling down early eh?

p/s : ending new moon tergantung! and nur kasih dah habis!

it's just rocket science

i love holidays!!! ...but the part when the holiday ends just sucks. i still cant get enough of sleep, food, and reruns of the nanny.

some pics from kampong.


yes, i stalked this cow (?) sapi in english apa? haha


i stalked this cat too. i named her miumiu
and we went to Manukan Island last week.

"Taman Tunku Abdul Rahman, Pulau Manukan"


culik slipper Rose!. haha. sis's

'sunbathing'



and when we arrived home last night, my baby looked like he has gained some weight.

the before picture

the after picture, bobo showing his booty

for the first time ever in my life last night, i felt like i dont want to go back to kuching coz i like it better in kk and kota marudu! huhu!

and Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone.

p/s : wish boyf was there to share the fun.

paper planes

please be aware that this post is only interesting for book-lovers or nerds (like me, but i'm a cool nerd obviously).

let us see what happened to one of my favourite books;

sob3. the cover has almost fallen off due to excessive usage of the owner and her siblings.

but not to worry, Mr Cell-Oh-Tape is here to save the day!.....

tadaaaa.. the book is already mended and taped up nicely, thanks to Mr Cell-Oh-Tape...UUuuu look! Mr Cell-Oh-Tape and the book become buddies already, awwww how cute.

its a harry potter book, as u guys can see there from the picture and its the first harry potter book i have, given by my ex back in 2005. and ive read it like, more than 10 times already since i first got the book.

oh yes, i love reading but it is kinda hard to find the books that i really like to read and since i prefer mostly books of the fantasy genre, u can guess what kind of books i usually think worth of buying and collecting...for example, harry potter series (one of my greatest addictions, apart from my boyf), the twilight saga, shopaholic series, and i got a few of jodi picoult's but then decided lately that her books make me feel depressed and emo so i dont buy them anymore.. and lots and lots of reader's digest since a few family members like to read reader's digest too (yes... i dont read fictions only i read magazine also....). itu sahaja... yeah i only got a few collections of book since i am too stingy to buy lots of books and borrow them from friends instead. hehe.

spent most of the morning taping up the book and luckily my supervisor didnt mind, since i dont have anything else to do.. yes this is what i do every morning if im out of work, waddle here n there, clear my desk, eat n eat n eat, sometimes if im bored enough i eat eventho i was not hungry at that time (thats why ive got lots of food at my desk)

it is THE time of the month, when girls have to endure some pain in the abdomen, or horrible backaches, and u feel like nothing's right....pity boyf for having to put up with my tantrums for i have the most terrible tantrums especially when THE time of the month comes. even my parents dont want to talk to me much when i become a mongsterrr heheheh

yeay pegi concrete batching plant! im off bye

p/s: tengok sorority row ju?

its about time i share a bit more on my internship here.

my workstation. marilah kita sama2 lihat;


very messy. org penting bah! no time to tidy up.

itu sahaja. sekian

p/s : my stash of food is hidden well behind the computer and my soft drinks is kept in the drawer. huh! makan jak keja!

ive packed a change of clothes and its time to move on

for the first time in so long, this morning, i read the newspaper. and oh my there are some terrible horrible news that made me grimace just reading about it (and i remembered why i dont read papers or watch the news often)

what irked me most is about the Malaysians-stole-Indonesians-cultures issue. i mean, i dont really understand why it is said to be stolen when Malaysians and Indonesians are generally Malays. come on la, we're in the same race no matter where we come from. of courseee the culture is the same. and to think that we let this petty issue become a controversy. *emo2*

anyhoos.

holiday was fine. spent most of it being sick and sleeping. for people who know me well they wont be surprise. i can sleep even when i cook. XD
nahhh thats an exaggeration. all in all, it was great spending time with friends and some of them i only get to see only once or twice a year. wont post any pictures here tho, posted some on facebook already. and the getting sick part is to be expected since the week before Eid i was so busy it was exhausting.

i was online this morning and saw the status messages of friends at utp on gtalk saying that the internet connection is slow and i thought that how lucky i am to have a decent connection here in the office but i found out internet ctok pun slow juak today!

this is pointless.

bah. kerja gk

sangat2 xde mod and mengantuk.

i think this song is cool and the lyric is nice. here u go

reminiscing.

Back then;

- haha i found this. and guess what? it still applies after all these years. but the difference now is that i love my boyf and he is the one who can always turn me on no matter how he is and what he has. :) and also want to add to the list of things that turns me off, emo people (sikit2 merajuk, sikit2 xmok tegur, sikit2 xmok kwn, that sort of behaviour disgust me to the core)

- i realize my english is better when im emo

- and i realize it took me a loooooong time to get over my ex

- and andddd i realize some people borrowed my clothes a few years back and never return it!

- i used to have a pea for a brain and i think i still have a pea for a brain just that it has upgraded a bit haha

- and i whined too much i was practically a whiner

- i often did 'pep-talks' for myself

- 2005 graduation;

i love this pic!! :DD

- me and my ex used to have this conv.
aziz : wani, u believe in destiny?
wani : yeah. why?
aziz : well, nothing really. its just that i still have the feeling that we will be together one day even if now or later on i meet someone else.
wani : maybe...

but now? hm hm everything ends well eventho both of us are not together anymore :PPP

- i used to love driving but now i hate it!

- i was so depressed that i used to take anti-depressants

- my xangan friends are nice.. i miss them

- i wanted to open a bakery! hahah :)

- and i often took these quizzes often :P

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

- i used to have a wishlist but i dont anymore not when i realize that life is a bitch :)

dah. i stopped reading my xanga up until middle of 2006.

wowzerssss three posts in a day! this has to be a record.
and whaddya know! i am still in the office sitting here doing nothing just for the sake of attendance and oh how fun it is! whoopdeedoo!

i still dont have the mood to celebrate Eid's.

p/s : i'm digging Vanilla Sky's, Umbrella. download la to listen k! too lazy to post the song here

differences between adults and children;

1. children usually have at least three ambitions; usually they want to be doctors, actors, performers, engineers. tapi skrg... only a few people stick to their ambitions when they were little. kan2. i dont even know what i want to be tho im heading to the career of engineering.

2. children can just sulk or cry whenever they dont get whatever they want or mayb when they are mad or sad. tapi skrg? xkan laaa want to cry in front of people whenever we feel disappointed or sad or mad. paling2 pun we can just scream and yell at other people which usually ending up with people hating our guts

3. children dont have to think where to find money, how to save money, worry about money, worry about work. tp skrg? i think it will not be long before my hair fall in clumps because of all the worrying

the point is it is wayyy easier to be a little kid.

thats all i can think of now. tambahlah if u want to.

p/s : bahasa rojak manglish bcoz i dont bother to fikir

to be frank, sometimes it freaks me out to think that i actually have been considering marrying and having kids at this age. and to make it worse i sometimes even have the urge to just get married and get it over with V_V

but im too young to have kids! i want to have vacations every month with boyf to different places until we get sick of it thennnnnn i'll be ready to have kids.

or mayb i should work hard on being rich thennnnn i'll be ready to have kids.

or i should enjoy my youth first, spend time with friends, buy this buy that, do things that i cant do when i have kids and be all fugly (fat + ugly) and tired thennnnn i'll be ready to have kids.

or after i make sure that my husband will still love me even when i am fugly after having his kids.

yeah, i will make sure i do all that and more before having kids :)

p/s : im just bored. nothing to do in the office and not a fan of youtube, facebook whatsoever..

repentance

selama 21 hari aku menahan segala dugaan sama ada dr tpt keje mahupun dr rumah mahupun dr time driving (dugaan plg hebat) mahupun menahan lapa ble tercium bau makanan ofismate tgh mkn.

tapi hari ni... sob22... aku kalah.... lepas 4 jam berpanas bwh terik matahari di site and dgn keadaan yg dah pening2 lalat and hampir pitam sbb dehydrated sgt2, aku tpakse gak melakukan bende yg aku semmgnye xmau kalo boleh.

huhu igtkan nk wat record perfect pose tahun ni. sdey2222222222222

p/s : i miss you

people have been asking me ' dont u feel guilty for aborting the kittens?'

i dont know if they know it but i sure damn well feel guilty for it, guilty enough to spend the rest of my life in misery! (and THANK YOU SO MUCH to them people for rubbing it in, its not as if i need to add to the guilty, and yes i know about being punished at hell for this, i appreciate the info!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

baby (my cat who originally is tamtam, i just call her baby coz i feel like it) is sick again today and i send her straight to the vet and let the doctor keep her there for a few days bcoz i dont trust myself to take care of her at least for the time being, sob2...

on a less relevant note, ive managed to control my temper on the road, less cursing and less stubborn; just the occasional honkings and glaring at farking rude people (strictly under the circumstances of over-the-limit rudeness)

anyway its been a long time since i meet up with some friends and ive missed them but i know its my fault always busy, always have no time to join them for dinner or whatsoever, i hope i can meet up with them soon mayb for Eid's.

and i hope for a miracle that mayb dena will be back to Kch for Eid's too. :P

bah. better get back to boring life.

what now?

i miss boyfriend so much that it got to the point where its painful just not to have him by my side.

bleargh. i half wished that we both applied for industrial training at kl instead of kuching but then maybe life will be harder living in kl. working life is boring, thats why i dont update much lately, and i dont get to go out with friends especially on weekdays bcoz i spend more than half of the day working and commuting to and from work, u see, when factored in the traffic jams and what with my house being far from town, the average time i spend on the road everyday is at least 4 hrs.

i guess i shudnt complain much tho, i know there are worse case than me out there :P

this morning i suddenly wish that harry potter is real and we all are living in the harry potter world. Voldermort u say? heheh. harry potter finished him off in the last book so i guess the harry potter world is pretty safe right now. heheh gila oh. adaka harry potter bena2. mayb im getting bored with my life so much right now that i thought of wishing such nonsense.

i hate to admit it but i miss utp and i miss my classmates. i really cant wait for this training to be over so that i can go back to utp and (go to class?) he. its not as if i was eager in attending classes :P anyway my point is student life is soooooo much better than working life.

okeh! im out of ideas already. better get to work asap. toodles

so what we gonna have, desert or disaster?

(finally! feel like updating)

work is okay i guess, but as usual the routine gets boring and it gets hard for me to wake up and go to work day by day. (unless there is some cute guy(s) at the office then maybe i will be motivated to go for work, not much but mayb a little)

there are a few things that i noticed at the office (apart from the not much of a difference compared to high school fact); being in sarawak of course there will not only be malays but other races too working here in the office but what makes me so uncomfortable is the fact that the non-malays dislike (hate is too harsh) us the malays. they dislike us so much that they dont even try to pretend that they are fine being within 5m radius with us.

and also, malaslah ku nk pdh ctok. haha. this blog is too public.

anyway, i was with my brother at watson's pharmacy the other day and we noticed;


yeah, an ordinary hair gel, but zooming closer;

well what do we have here, in case u cant see the words clear enough (i just use a camera phone) it says there, written in blue : Wet & Hard.

there is no need for me to elaborate further eh ;) all i can say is obsceneity(i dont know if this word exist) can be found anywhere (even on a hair gel).

i have a runny nose and a headache and a part of me actually want to get sick and get an mc for next monday (yes, i am that desperate to have a holiday) but another part of me dont want to get sick bcoz getting sick sucks big time. hehe oh well.

better get my work done. yes, i work on saturdays too. pity me. boohoo.

anyhoos before i go;



her voice is so sweet no? she's singing Keri Hilson's - Knock You Down. Dedicating this song to my boyf. :)

i dont.

things i do in the morning before reporting in on my first day of work;

- fried chicken, to tapao for lunch just to have the cat stole and eat it in the end

- fill the water tumbler just to find out that ive forgotten to bring it to work

- arrived 20 mins early and since the office is still not open, went to find nearby toilet to release some butterfiles coz i had so many butterfiles in my stomach coz nebes bah

but i find out that there's no need to be nervous at all, my supervisor and colleagues are great :)

and oh for the first week, i just have to read some reports and study plans blablabla, i dont know what i should really do. yet.

ya jak. bui2