what goes around comes around

the title is so cliche i know.

all this while, i know that i have low tolerance for pain, and u wud say that i wud be the person to avoid pain at all costs but on second thought i act the total opposite. like, i know i have sensitive tonsils, there was even this one time when my tonsils were swollen so much that when i drink or even speak it hurts so much. doctor, bf have advised to cut down on the consumption of cold drinks but i was stubborn and now the tonsils feel painful if not uncomfortable.

and another thing that i know i will get hurt at some point when i love someone this much, (dont get me wrong, i get hurt because of my high expectations, its not because of sayang), but i still cant help falling in love with bf, so u see even if i am the person who whines too much about a cut on the finger or get restless when my mouth have ulcers and other little things that are supposed to make me at least can ignore those little things but no.. i still whine. a lot.

so everytime i feel the littlest sorethroat ever i freak out already fearing that my tonsils would get swollen again and this time my nitemare came true. wuhuhu, and of course im not telling bf! he will scold me for not heeding his warning all this time. and mother too, and father too. lol

so, i have to endure this alone (with the meds) and i'll try not to whine, not even a single word of pain! yes! i will be strong! i deserve it anyway :(

talking about deserving things, u know, i really believe in karma (are muslims allowed to believe in karma?) well, for example if people talk this... that... behind you, the same thing will happen to them, and to the people dissing them and to the people dissing them them :P come to think of it, it actually is some sort of a cycle. so folks, if u have had ur fair share of gossiping do expect that people will gossip about u too, doesnt matter it is about bad or good things. and as for me, i dont really care what people are talking behind my back as long as i dont know about it and if i do know about it, its not hurtful enough to make me feel bitter about them.

ah, its quite nice talking about my swollen tonsils and karma rather than dissing people in my blog kan, it is much much nicer :)

bye kawan2 yang aku sayang and ingat selalu. (yes, i get mushy2 these days, i dont care, it feels nice)

and goodbye to u too, my brother from another mother (okay, im not referring to anyone i just want to use the phrase :P )